Tit bits .. the last few days

I have had a few very sad days for a last few weeks a few things been happening which have taken their toll , It has all made me wonder about a few things , I know one who has come to this world hast to go , today – tomorrow or some day .. basically we all have to leave .. One after the other it has to come to an end .. It all matter how we have lived that life . all those years on this planet.  I remember so many people who are no more in this world  but in my opinion had lived a great life , I mean I remember them so they are bound to have done a few good things .. Which again brings me to the point that Will there be anyone who remembers me .. Of will I die a death where people silently thank god .. Good riddance .. ( i know of One who will for sure.. inspite of going ga ga over the fact that I am supposedly the best friend forever.. Oh yes people I got enemies tooo and a lot of them )

We all live our life to the best we can but what happens when people die .. DO they die forever..  is it forever ?  Today 25th July was my dad’s death anniversary and I have been remembering a few things .. I know people say he is up there and he can see me .. but how do we know that ..

Some say that he is in a beautiful place and he is happier but again same question ?

A lot of these thoughts have been coming to my mind.. Do such questions trouble others too ..

I have been thinking a lot about him, I was sitting with a family friend yesterday and they were telling me so much about dad, Since her husband was one of his best friends even if we were related to each other .. Various emotions were going through at one stage I felt like crying but I did not, That reminds me I have not cried at all since Dad has passed away.. I have had tears swelled but I cant remember them falling..  .. Dont know why .. AM I THICK SKINNED or as they say COLD HEARTED or have a iron heart that doesnot feel sadness .. I dont know ..

What is it being sad.. what is it.. how do you feel sad..

I know I started this article with saying I have had a few sad days , But truthfully ahhhhhhhhh I don’t know , I have not been sad , Its been normal days , I have worked , worked and workeddddd .. Now I am thinking if I should be posting this article at all as I myself can’t make any sense out of it ..

At work its been the same Politics at its best, people back biting each other the so-called GOOD mates for the sake of showing off , or being in good books of seniors suddenly try the best they can to jeopardise you… sometimes I hate myself for being the way I am  good or bad I don’t know..  but then we can’t please everyone can we.. Is it crime these days to think the way I think ..

for me family and friends are sacred  friendship isn’t empty word  it  implies responsibilities , obligations  respect for each other ..

I know that  whatever happens I will always respect my friends, its up to them if they wanna do that towards me or not 🙂