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Main Haale Nahin Marda

Posted: December 6, 2011 in Abuse, Badla, Cheaters, Die, Hate, Love, Loyalty
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Tutde rishte zakham bahut doonge de jaande
Par Zakhman di peed nu sehna aa hi Jaanda

                          Breaking of relation give deep bruises
                          But one learns how to deal with them

Tere Dhokiyaan te Jhoote waadiyan ne kita hai adhmoya
Tute te ujade dil  de pathar lagde ne pyare hun

                          Your cheating and false promises have left me half dead
                           But broken and ruined stones in my heart I like now

Sochan which hain mangdi saadi maut da farmaan
Ik gal da hai yakeen Tere wangu Rab nahin karda dhokha
Mann ne haale nahin marna

                          You probably wish for me dead
                          I do KNOW for sure that God is not going to betray me
                          Mann (me) is not gonna die so soon

Duavan haan Teri lai mangda..
Rab kare dil tere diyan pooriyaan hon har muradaan

                          I wish for your happiness 
                          May god give you and grant every of your wish

Door kadi jad akali tun hain baithen
Chees tere dil which waar waar eho Uthe
Das ni rakaane tun idan kyun kita..

                        
                          Far away when you are alone sitting
                          let there be this pain in your heart which keeps saying to you
                          Why oh Why did you do this

I have had a few very sad days for a last few weeks a few things been happening which have taken their toll , It has all made me wonder about a few things , I know one who has come to this world hast to go , today – tomorrow or some day .. basically we all have to leave .. One after the other it has to come to an end .. It all matter how we have lived that life . all those years on this planet.  I remember so many people who are no more in this world  but in my opinion had lived a great life , I mean I remember them so they are bound to have done a few good things .. Which again brings me to the point that Will there be anyone who remembers me .. Of will I die a death where people silently thank god .. Good riddance .. ( i know of One who will for sure.. inspite of going ga ga over the fact that I am supposedly the best friend forever.. Oh yes people I got enemies tooo and a lot of them )

We all live our life to the best we can but what happens when people die .. DO they die forever..  is it forever ?  Today 25th July was my dad’s death anniversary and I have been remembering a few things .. I know people say he is up there and he can see me .. but how do we know that ..

Some say that he is in a beautiful place and he is happier but again same question ?

A lot of these thoughts have been coming to my mind.. Do such questions trouble others too ..

I have been thinking a lot about him, I was sitting with a family friend yesterday and they were telling me so much about dad, Since her husband was one of his best friends even if we were related to each other .. Various emotions were going through at one stage I felt like crying but I did not, That reminds me I have not cried at all since Dad has passed away.. I have had tears swelled but I cant remember them falling..  .. Dont know why .. AM I THICK SKINNED or as they say COLD HEARTED or have a iron heart that doesnot feel sadness .. I dont know ..

What is it being sad.. what is it.. how do you feel sad..

I know I started this article with saying I have had a few sad days , But truthfully ahhhhhhhhh I don’t know , I have not been sad , Its been normal days , I have worked , worked and workeddddd .. Now I am thinking if I should be posting this article at all as I myself can’t make any sense out of it ..

At work its been the same Politics at its best, people back biting each other the so-called GOOD mates for the sake of showing off , or being in good books of seniors suddenly try the best they can to jeopardise you… sometimes I hate myself for being the way I am  good or bad I don’t know..  but then we can’t please everyone can we.. Is it crime these days to think the way I think ..

for me family and friends are sacred  friendship isn’t empty word  it  implies responsibilities , obligations  respect for each other ..

I know that  whatever happens I will always respect my friends, its up to them if they wanna do that towards me or not 🙂

 

Hello there Humans well I am supposing you are humans as in belonging to the same set of Being on this earth .. don’t worry this is nothing to tell you off or anything about what you are doing, I have a few requests that i want to make and ask  first is kindly do let me know why are you people hell-bent on killing innocent humans, people whom you don’t know, people who you have never seen in your life , what in the world have they done to be treated by you like that, that you don’t give two hoots about them ..

I am sure you have your own reasons or whatever Evil thrill you guys get in killing an innocent human..  I can give you a list of hundred nay thousands of indian people who are worst of a kind, who you can target and believe me it will be a bigger impact than killing innocent civilians who are going about their day to-day work. How about planting those bombs aimed at our national leaders .. That will get you media attention if any one of them is killed in a blast..

It will definitely help your cause , though in my little mind I can’t understand what CAUSE  it is?  that says to attain it you have to kill innocent people …

Look if you can leave the countrymen the innocent civilians and go for the Idiot corrupt – useless leaders that my country has it will work in both our favour you will get your evil pleasure in blowing up some human , or maybe you have this fetish for blasts and enjoy the sound of loud bangs…  secondly  we will be happy to get rid of these corrupt leaders.

If you guys are after money then again these leaders have enough money hidden in their vaults that  you guys can live a lavish life .. More over God might just smile if you kill the bad people , as such since negative negative makes a positive I am guessing bad VS bad might just become good .. who knows ..

This is a humble request to you all planning designing the atrocities on fellow human beings please go for the big fish.  I am sure some of the innocent civilians may actually support you in this act of yours, the media has been going on and on about how we need to move on and how normalcy is returning back to Mumbai , how the people are so resilient .. Well I am 100% sure that the same civilians will Move on much quicker knowing that a Kalmadi or a Raja or some other corrupt has been blown to bits…

PS:-  I was informed me asking the terrorist to kill leaders rather then innocent people maybe taken in wrong way , so to clarify ..  thats exactly what i want .. As our leaders are not innocent and deserve to be Shot and killed ..  It is a genuine request to the Killers if they have to kill then kill the politicians rather then innocent people .. Maybe then our leaders will do something about this and safeguard the citizens who deserve better security then the leaders. The Deaths of innocent people has not shocked any of our leaders all those promised made last time when our country was attacked, Nothing has been done , maybe on paper but not in the Real sense, If one big leader is killed then things will move.. maybe then instead of a Z security for the politcians or any officer there will be MAYBE a “A” security for a the whole  COUNTRY.. I dare not say for a common man..

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I have read a lot of posts on the mumbai blasts, a lot of people like me have a lot to say and lot of blame game going on , But What makes me angry is why are we blaming others , It is US the indian people , who are to be blamed , we have brought all this upon ourself.  We are the ones who chose the leaders to lead us , We see them every 5 years or sometimes less, we moan about how they are corrupt and bad leaders , Yet come the election day we go and VOTE for them .. its none of their fault …

If I am a leader and I am getting a chance to rob anyone without being questioned , sorry to say I will probably do what they are doing, anyone and everyone will do the same … This is not a SATYUG or the era of HarishChander.. it is a time where everyone is for its own self.. I have seen people who vouch for how good they are , seen them say a lot about corrupt people but once they get the same seat they are doing the same … I am sure all of us will do .. Look at the latest political Dramas being played by a few all in the name of doing good for the country… How millions went ga ga over leaders who did good one day .. the very next day they were doing the same what they stood up against…

It is sad what happened Very sad , But what have we as individuals done about it , not many have done anything, it has become norm.. Things will only change once WE STAND UP, clean the dirt in our own house, then our street , then the road , Mohalla , city , State and so on Then we MAY see some change..

We are doing great , we are evolving , We have gone leaps ahead in this or that .. YES we have but all this has it in any way changed the ways of life for a common man, I doubt it .. And common man is the one who if changed will change the ways of a country , the rich getting richer , the corrupt getting corrupter  is not going to change anything …

I hope our leaders don’t put another of those committee’s to look into the security , to find reasons , to find the culprits .. That does not work. It’s just a farce what has any of these committee’s ever done for the nation.. other than use up the TAX money and waste them too. Time for action What action is taken depends upon how the people of our country feel ..

My heart-felt condolences to the people who were affected by this , and also I would like to say SORRY TO ALL THAT WERE AFFECTED BY THIS , SINCE AS A INDIAN I ALONG WITH BILLION STRONG DID NOTHING .. 

No wonder these people who bring about so much damage get away with what they want to do , when they want to , How they want to do .. This will always continue till we wake up .. I don’t know what will it take to wake us all, or when that will happen but I know one thing that when we ALL GET UP , STAND TOGETHER , All these terrorists will disappear .. because after all they are amongst us , the enemy is within us all.. we just need to open our eyes and find out who they are ..

Batti Laal Jadon langhe Saade maardi hai Dande  (red light atop , crosses by us and then Hits us )
Punj sallan lai APPAN aaPe beeje eh Kande ..         (For five years we ourself have Sowed these THORNS)

Have you ever dreamed or thought what life would be if some moments in life that have gone by turned out different…

Well lately I have been thinking about it a lot , I know I have written about what if this or what if that … anyway have had some pretty tough days in the recent past, hence the thought of what if..

I was the only male child in my family hence spoilt, my grand parents loved me to bits, Daddy as I called my grandpa had a second marriage, my dad being the son from the first marriage, Things were not good but for some reason my grand ma and pa loved me to bits, I remember an episode that I am reminded a lot many times By my Bhua (my dads step sister) she had come from USA to visit us, with her son and daughter, who were same age as me 4 or 5 years old.. I am reminded to this day how there was snake in the courtyard of the house and my grand-ma ran and picked me up , took me inside, I take it for the love for Me. Anyway the reason why I said this was what if My Dads mum had not died and my grand pa was not married again, will there be still the same problems that we had Once my grand pa passed away.

My grand ma loved me so much, I was practically raised by her since my mum was very young when she got married, and suddenly to change. I remember when I was in hostel my grand pa and Ma both coming to visit me every other weekend, The money I got for the festivals… Anything I wanted if my dad said no, I would get it from my grand parents. I spent more time with my grand parents all the time. But all that changed once my grand dad passed away, I remember getting the call early morning about 3 am from my dad telling me about my Daddy, thankfully there was a flight at 9Am, got that ..

I mean my cousins they are all born and live in USA, hardly visited India ever, Suddenly when my grand pa passed away it was like All flights come to india, that’s when the problems started the property, the shops etc etc.. why is there so much greed in people, Why is the sudden love and affection comes into the Fore when someone dies, where were they all when Grand pa was alive. Anyway I am not sure why I am writing this. I have been under a lot of stress with the other side of the family asking me to sell off a part of the property but I don’t want to , after all that is what we have inherited from our parents. How can you just sell it away.

I asked this question from my cousin and I got a mouthful regarding it, I asked them I would buy it off them if they are so keen to sell it off, the calls I got , the threatening calls telling me I dare not come to india, I mean WHAT THE F____.

Hence all this problem and the QUESTION WHAT IF..

What if my real grand mother had not died.. but on other hand the question is why this sudden change in my grand mother suddenly, have I changed or has she.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH relations and relatives why did we have them.. Am I wrong if I want to keep my part of the property, I don’t want to SELL. Moreover why would anyone want to take what is given to them on a silver platter, I have worked hard for where I am now, bought my own house, it is such an elevation a thrill to sign on the dotted line and getting those keys to YOUR OWN HOUSE. I guess it’s the thrill of easy money, the hard work put in by our elders to make the property and other stuff we don’t see, till we have to do it ourselves and have to work hard to earn it ourselves.

Anyway I am glad I wrote this , I have had my rant…. 🙂