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Hello everyone.  I am not even going to attempt talking about where I have been and whats happened to the A to Z challenge. I am sure you guys are sick and tired of listening to my excuses by now … BUT me being me I will still Rant and Rave 🙂 he he he he

The last Two months have been so chaotic nothing has gone right for me, it seems God has some sort of plan for me or rather No plan for me. This circle of good years – bad years doesn’t seem to break.

Its been such a turmoil , such an extreme that I have gone from getting to stand on a Podium TO a few evenings where I thought whats the best way to kill Myself:), just could not find enough courage to go through with it, basically I am a coward 🙂 ..

Living in UK away from all the friends and family suddenly becomes such a pain, seems to be the worst decision made at such moments of life.

Again there have been some lovely human beings especially from the Blogworld who have been contacting and asking.. So thank you.. YOU LOVELY Human beings, god bless you all.

Here in UK we live in a funny world of human rights which seem to be very very partial towards those who actually are the worst enemies of human rights, Sadly I can’t go into the details of things that have happened.

As of Today I am no more working in the job I was ,for which I worked so hard, I have resigned from my job, I was hoping for some miracle but alas I am not lucky to have miracles. Right or Wrong I don’t know but I just got fed up of the way things were being treated. I was not going to say SORRY for something which I did with my heart and in Full faith that I was doing the right thing.

I am standing by myself but then isn’t that how life has become when things come to the crunch you find yourself standing by yourself, suddenly all those who use to be your best mates at some stage disappear.   The ones who spoke so lovingly about you are nowhere to be seen. I guess such are the way of the world. 🙂

On other hand today I also have a smile on my face and I feel relieved because at least in-spite of all that pressure I stood by my decision NOW we will see what others will do. PHEWWWWWWWwwwwwwwwww , let the funny games begin.  I am not going to say that it was the Right or Wrong decision because I did not want to be in a situation where I would be made to do something that I would not want to do.

Maybe I am Stubborn

Maybe I am Wrong

Maybe I am all just talk  and nothing else

I don’t know, it hurts to know that something that you did with so much passion for so long, even some of the people who loved me hated me for giving so much importance to this job, and something that you loved would come to an end like this..  Five years and then I am able to talk about the episodes that have happened and maybe then when everything is in the open I will get to know if all this was worth it or Not.

One of my old old Blog friends said this to me some time back .. HOW APT… ” when life pulls you,wrenches you, the same life hugs you and kisses you and love you back.. we just need to know to be strong and be positive about life. ” by Aswathy here.

Hey anyone willing to give me a JOB 🙂

SO this is what has been going around in my part of the world , How are you all doing.. and what are you all up to. 

 

Ps. Please I am sorry I have not replied to the comments in previous posts. I will get to them very soon.  Thanks.

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Zara Dholiya Dhol ute Daga lain oye
Hath rakh kan ute boli tun pain oye
Ful khidiya sab de man bhaunda
PUNJAB MERA RAHE WASDA

(Hey the man with the DHOL(drum), beat it , and sing the song, that as a flower is loved by everyone same way let my PUNJAB be loved to , let it live forever)

I remember the time when Punjab state was one of the most rich state, it was supposedly the state which fed the whole of the country .. But over the years things have changed drastically.. first the terrorism and now the political .. Actually hold on let me rephrase that.. The state of Punjab was always given a Step motherly treatment by the centre govt. I am sure no one can deny that.. look what that has done to this state.. (carved three states from one state),  then terrorism happened which took us so many years behind , A whole generation of Punjabi youth was finished , disintegrated in those years.. the after math of that we are still feeling and some of us are living the horror.

The Government as usual is only busy in filling their own coffers, no one has time for that man, The man who gets up early morning no matter what the weather is like rainy,chilly, hot … He gets up to go and tend to his farmland, his animals.. a Typical day in the life of a farmer .. I know because I have done it .. been there ..worn the tee 🙂

Get up at the first light of about 4:30/5 in morning , It a different story that if you did not get up the village Gurudwara’s granthi made sure you get up when he started with his daily routine on the Speakers..

Go to the fields to take a round , by the time you got back the ladies in the house had the fire burning, stoves ready .. getting the food ready .. Breakfast would be a Big Mug full of Lassi, with Paranthas… and off to fields .. Tilling the land, sowing the seeds, watering the fields , etc etc a non stop day of work .. work and more work.. with little respite from weather.. sun shining hard and mighty .. or the winter chill going right inside to the bones .. Feet went numb when watering the fields in the middle of the night …

But all that was worth  the hardship, when the first green leaf appeared from the soil .. It also meant the start of problems –  not one but so many of them …

Typically it is like either the Motor to the tube well burnt cause of the fluctuations in electricity, you get that fixed then there would be a problem with the tubewell itself.. Sometimes the water level would go down , with no water or there was  draught like situation… OR it would rain so much that there is excess of water  and we get floods…

The farmer has no other way then to go and get a loan from the bank, and hope that next season things will be different, with a bumper crop he can get rid of the loan, and earn some money.. the whole life cycle starts all over again .. but its the same outcome and this time he has not been able to pay the instalment also… So now he has no crop, plus a defaulter with the bank.. he sleeps hungry the one who feeds the whole nation. Farmers have a bad life, they are going to die one day struggling..

The loan gets passed on to family members who are left behind after the death of the person who took the loan.

If the crop gets a decent start then the new age diseases take over, Nature plays havoc.. Chet Singh says the rent of the land was Rs 50,000 per acre and Gurjeet had sown cotton there. “Weeks after Gurjeet’s death, whitefly ate up the cotton crop; Rs 14,000 per acre were spent to raise the crop and Rs 8,000 per acre has come as compensation. The debt still stands.” 

His son is jobless, no work .. and daughters are grown now. they have to be married soon .. Which well can he throw himself down to die, that’s why they think that its better to die than live like this every day, Why did this Farmer kill himself Hour before his daughter was to get Married

What is going to happen to our farmers, not just in Punjab but everywhere its the same story.. We who live in the cities take everything for granted, do we sit for once and think about those who are actually providing for us, We go to a shop and buy the stuff with our money, the money which we MAY have earned after working hard.. but just imagine the plight of that farmer who is working so much harder than us, so we can eat, Yet he does not get what is due to them.

We the people of a great nations are arguing over stupid things , spending hours on useless things, We need to Wake up, All this development that we keep barking about, is not good if the backbone of our country is broken and FARMERS are those backbone of our great nation.

So many farmers are committing suicides these days because of the intense pressure they are living under, it is sad. Every day there is a new story that gets published which tells a horrific story.

The Tribune is doing one such series, I have put links to some of there posts and it is heart rendering. The Tribune series on suffering families of farmers in Punjab who have committed suicide has evoked tremendous response from readers, many of who have expressed a wish to extend help. To facilitate contact with the families, they have given the names and phone numbers of the persons mentioned in the stories, or contacts in their families. 

BUT A PIECE OF ADVICE TO ALL WHO WANT TO HELP, PLEASE DON’T GIVE TO CHARITIES OR RELIGIOUS BODIES OR POLITICAL BODIES AS ALL THAT MONEY NEVER REACHES THE NEEDY.  IF SOMEONE WANTS TO HELP CONTACT THE PEOPLE DIRECTLY.

 

The SGPC which is a SIKH Religious body has so much money in its account , yet I have never heard any of it being used to save a life of a farmer.

The last time I visited my village we had a game of cricket at 5am in morning some pics..

Continuing from part one How to live and Die (1) – Sad post and part Two How to live and Die (2 and 3)- My Views on what I think are some of the points that one needs to keep in mind to have a good Life and Die a peaceful death, the first point as I said is health.. as Health is Wealth., Then comes MONEY, I would actually put MONEY on par with Health, as lets be truthful in todays day and age MONEY is very important, Then comes having a place of your own called HOME , especially if you own your own house.

So moving on I think that there is a particular trait in us human beings that we should try to get rid of and that is “ENVY“, we all have it, A BIG FAT LIAR is the person who says he/she does not Envy.

The biggest envy we have is of that particular person who has done better than us, OH YES we all do that sometimes consciously or sometimes sub-consciously. I don’t know why do we do that or how does it concern us But in all these thoughts and in all this time spent in envying them we usually do not see how much hard work they have put in to get where they are.

It is not easy to reach high, takes a lot of hard work, heartaches, we lose a lot of people in that race to reach the top, seldom do we stand still to think is it WORTH it, reaching that particular position, or in trying to earn more money is it worth losing a good friend. By the time we stand still to think it is already too late what is lost is gone, I have a few friends who are doing just that, to become a manager or to get that extra pay grade they forget that their 4 years kid does not see them all day long, by the time they reach home the kid is asleep. Just spending a SUNDAY with the kid is not good enough, the Sunday too is spent most of time on phone calls or getting to grips what was missed in the week, paying of bills, renewing of this or that.

I have seem some very rich people not being able to enjoy a full meal in peace, YES they are a managing director of a company but having their dinner with the phone glued to the ear is not what I see as ideal situation. Thankfully I am pleased that I have stopped getting into this rat race, I am happy with what every I have, its enough to feed me all my life and maybe half the life of my next generation to.

Due to work and all there is only one meal in a day that I get to eat at home and I enjoy having it because I make sure I switch off my phone or put it on silent once I come back home.

I think it is this ENVY that makes us do all that, because we are envious of someone making so much money or reaching a particular position it makes us think about ourself , which in turn then makes us more frustrated WHY Can I Not have that, WHY cant I get that.. WELL you can but do give a thought at all the hard work put in and what all have these rich people lost on the way, Are you willing to give up all that!!!

So if we can get rid of this ENVY, I am sure we can have a smooth life.

What do you think people.. ?????

It’s been a long time since I posted something here as I have been struggling with some issues, that don’t seem to leave me alone but more on that later, don’t want to dampen the Christmas cheer but the recent events that have taken place in our neighbouring nation have given us enough to think. I don’t have words to describe the atrocity that has been committed against the little kids, Why it was done, WHO in their sane mind even thought about doing the act leave the planning part aside.

To call these people HUMAN is insulting itself, I can understand all this Jihad, fighting the oppressor, fighting for a cause etc etc BUT in my little mind I can’t understand what CAUSE IT IS? that says to attain it you have to kill innocent people … To stoop to such a level that you have had to kill little kids, Were you not man enough to take one someone your own SIZE.. Even with the amount of weaponry you had in your hands.

Where in ANY religion it says one has to go ,Kill innocent and that too little children, Rather it is said KIDS are God’s face, so how can it be right.

I fail to understand why are you people hell-bent on killing innocent humans, people whom you don’t know, people who you have never seen in your life, what in the world have they done to be treated by you like that, that you don’t give two hoots about them, Fine in your own twisted mind you have your own reasons or Evil thrill you guys get in killing an innocent human BUT pray let us know what they are.

I have read a lot of posts on what has happened, a lot of people like me have a lot to say and lot of blame game going on , But What makes me angry is why are we blaming others , It is
US the people, who are to be blamed, we have brought all this upon ourselves

The reason I say this is that in spite of knowing

1. Where the training centres are
2. Where these evil people are hiding
3. Where they get there weapons to do the mass murders
4. Who supports them

Nothing has ever been done, I heard the leaders in Pakistan speak the same words, our leaders spoke in India. The mentality of the so-called leaders is exactly the same irrespective of the country they live or lead. The same leaders were shouting at top of the voice after the Mumbai attack how their land is not being used to plan atrocities against neighbouring country. I hope they do the something now to make the world a better safer place, IF we can… as I think and feel that the damage is already done , it’s going to be so very difficult to hold the flow now. I only hope and wish innocent are not killed.

We the people found it amusing when the same atrocities were committed in other countries against other races or religions, because they were the KAFIRS, But sadly it is true with the saying “You reap what you SOW“… for years the leaders of our neighbouring nation has been sheltering the same people who are now doing the same against their own people.

I remember writing a letter to the Terrorist a few years back , where I pleaded them to stop killing innocent people and gave them enough options whom to kill otherwise, yet in all these madness it’s still the innocent who die ALWAYS. Never have I read news that a leader shot dead.

How hard can it be to find these bad people, if the leaders make up their minds and genuinely want to find them, We have read how the Intelligence agencies are involved one way or the other in helping these criminals, in the name of patriotism but is it REALLY that, what has all this patriotism brought so far, in all these years other than bloodshed and innocent dead. Where was all this intelligence when the little kids were being shot?

In my OWN TWISTED MIND, I want to ask the intelligence agencies was any of their relatives or family kids shot in the mayhem. Would they have done things differently if they had known it’s their own kin being targeted, or will they do something now.

It is sad what happened, Very sad, my heart wept hearing the kid say he doesn’t want to go to school anymore and the next moment it was filled with ANGER hearing that the Taliban have issued another threat that they will kill more if kids went for education.

We the human-kind are doing great, we are evolving, we have gone leaps ahead in this or that… YES we have but all this has it in any way changed the ways of life for a common man, I doubt it… it’s the common man if changed will change the ways of a country , the rich getting richer , the corrupt getting corrupter is not going to change anything …

I hope the leaders of our neighbouring country don’t put another of those committee’s to look into the security, to find reasons, to find the culprits… That does not work. It’s just a farce what has any of these committee’s ever done for the nation… other than use up the TAX money and waste them too. Time for action what action is taken depends upon how the people feel…

My heart-felt condolences to the people who were affected by this , and also I would like to say SORRY TO ALL THAT WERE AFFECTED BY THIS , SINCE AS A HUMAN, I ALONG WITH EVERYONE DID NOTHING ..

No wonder these people who bring about so much damage get away with what they want to do, when they want to, how they want to do… This will always continue till we wake up… I don’t know what will it take to wake us all, or when that will happen but I know one thing that when we ALL GET UP, STAND TOGETHER , All these terrorists will disappear… because after all they are amongst us, the enemy is within us all… we just need to open our eyes and find out who they are..

I got the following message on Whatsapp today

“Pakistan had made those terrorists, given birth to those terrorists, given shelter to those terrorists. These were own made terrorists of Pakistan. Those terrorists were made to spread terrorism in whole of world including India. And India is effected nation from terrorism by Pakistan. I do have sympathy but not of that much that we console and have sorrow of that much depth. After all how those terrorists were in Pakistan? Because they were under the protection and shelter of Pakistan. So we need not to be so sad on happened incident of enemy state Pakistan.”

To which I replied :-

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Such are what we have become .. NO wonder so much hatred and atrocities are common in today’s modern world..

Continuing from part one How to live and Die (1) – Sad post on what I think are some of the points that one needs to keep in mind to have a good Life and Die a peaceful death, the first point as I said is health.. as Health is Wealth..

The next point that is equally important is MONEY.. I don’t like beating around the bush and I am sure a lot of people will be shaking their heads but believe you me that I do think after Health the next most important is a healthy bank balance: OH Yes this is a must, and If you owe some money to someone then you need enough to pay off that debt and as soon as possible. We humans have this tendency that if we owe someone and even though we have enough money we try to keep it closer to us as much as possible and for as long as possible, I don’t know why we don’t just pay our debts off at the earliest.

I recently found this out, that I do owe money to someone, I hope I am able to pay it off as soon. Over the time I have also realised that expensive gifts taking-giving need to be stopped, because when relations go sour suddenly that money spent cuts into an already sour relation.

Anyway I am deviating from the point .. One needs to have a healthy bank balance enough to provide a few comforts, and most importantly One should have enough for fun time, small little things like going for movies, eating out, holidays etc etc. Holidays May not be luxury holidays but some that can release all that pressure that builds up, somewhere that relaxes you.. I have a perfect place where I get relaxed the most .. My Village house.. That’s one place where I feel happy even when everything around me is falling down. Although saying that I had not been there for so long, so this year when I spent 2 weeks it felt like heaven, I have made my self promise ME.. that I am going to spend at least ONE week each year at home, That definitely means I need that MONEY – a healthy bank balance to do just that, as coming to India is becoming more and more expensive each passing day.

Not having enough money to just have basic recreation is very demoralizing. I was talking to a friend on this , he mentioned that he has a mortgage and some credit card bills, But I would not advice anyone to Live on credit or borrow , as that is far worse , it is demeaning and lowers one in one’s own eyes, especially if you are unable to pay the installments.

Now that we are talking about Money PLEASE don’t lend money especially to friends, I know I am being horrible but it is truth, you lose friendship and the Money.

As I said we humans have this tendency that we like to hold on to that money for as long, even if we owe. If you ask your friend for the money back, you are suddenly not that good a friend, so friendship lost with that money too,

After Health — Money is the most important thing in life no matter what people say.. even the billionaires need the money..

The Next important fact after Health-Money is Having your own home, and by that I mean the one which you may buy yourself, I am strong believer that if you buy your own with your own hard-earned money you feel more Happy.I know in today’s economy it’s a big task to buy one’s own home and many many of us live in the house that we have got from our parents they probably from their’s, It is yours but it is not yours .. If you know what I mean.

Many people these days live on rent , Renting a place never gives you the comfort or security that you get because somewhere in the back of your mind it’s always something that you will have to vacate. BUT saying that these days especially in india No one vacates.. If you give your property on rent it seems you have done one of the worst things ever.. this brings added tensions to the owner.. I have burnt my fingers in that too. Use to have a Shop in Chandigarh the normal rent in the sector is at least 60 to 70000, but the gentleman who rented ours paid a measly 2200/- , yeah just 2200Rs. My father was a very soft man, the guy would come and cry how difficult the situation is and my dad would say ok next year we will increase , this carried on for 40+ years. So Last year I sold it off to a friends Uncle at 30% less than the market price, he has enough clout to throw this tenant out on the road, and then I got phone calls every day from him telling me he is ready to up the rent to whatever price I said, but too late for that.

I dont know why we have this mentality if we are having something good we over do it , this guy had all his business , everyone knew him and now when he would have had to set up his work at a different place , at a higher price he realises he was wrong, I remember 4 years ago when i had gone to india I had a chat with him and had told him that , he was wrong, He did the usual sob story and said can afford to increase the rent to 3000Rs. only , I just turned back and said leave it , he can have the 800rs. it will help his family more.. But serves him right.

I got so scared of this tenant business that , the house I had bought a year and half ago , we had given it on rent but now I have got it vacated and I plan to have it like that , we have a care taker who lives in it , the guy who worked our fields has a second wife 🙂 , yeah I know 🙂 .. and one kid, so the other family live in that taking care of the house , it helps both of us he doesn’t have to pay for rent , he was paying previously and we have someone looking after the house.

Disclaimer: This post does not intend to make any one sad, But please don’t read if you are in a happy mood, as this is going to spoil it 🙂

It is strange how your mind works when things are not going according your way, or life is becoming a turmoil for one reason to another. Nothing seems to be working, And have you realised when that happens, what all we do just to make sure it gets ok. Whatever we believe in goes out of the window for a six, I hardly use to believe in horoscopes or sun signs, rather I use to lecture people as to why do they believe in all this silliness, but saying that in the early part of previous year I spend a lot of money on horoscope readers , I don’t know why I did that, or how I got stuck with one of this website and now it has become so difficult to get rid of them. The emails they send the words they use , it seems so real that they can help you out for sure , only to find out that what has to happen will happen. I ended up buying these stones that are supposed to alter destiny and bladdy blah 🙂 ….

On top of all that we have this habit of trying to keep everyone happy, I am one of those who tries to keep everyone happy, BUT What makes people happy, how can we make others happy when we are unhappy, we as a person need to smile to make others smile, so what do we as an individuals need to do , to make sure we can get happiness and in process maybe make some of the people around us happy.. ALTHOUGH I DOUBT it, that it is ever gonna happen for whatever reason.

I read a lot of books in the previous one year, Done a few bits and pieces here and there , but no matter what I do .. it’s very hard to please everyone and also find that MANTRA for happiness for one-selves or others ..

Last year taught a few things, that things don’t happen as you want them to happen or even as you plan them to take place.

Some of the stuff that I have picked up, in all this chaos is that I feel, the most important thing a person needs is their Health – we need to be on top of that, because if I am sick then I am not going to make many people happy as they might think I am becoming a burden on them, no matter what we say , how close we are , how much they love us , in the end we will become a burden so good health is important. if I am healthy it keeps my mind happy too .. Any small hiccup in health , any small ailment, however trivial, will always put a dampener and take away something from our happiness for sure.

An experience taught me maybe the mantra for my happiness (or so I hope) , which when I think now, I can say with confidence that I “THINK” I am not afraid of death, I am ready for it as and when it comes (the horoscope lady has said I will live for a Long long time 🙂 , which actually made me laugh because in my family the male’s have died quiet young, My great Grand father was only in his 60’s , my grandfather was the only one who lived to be 84, my dad himself was only in his 60’s when he passed away, so if I take the average then I have already lived more than half my life 🙂 )

Anyway I went on a tangent there, as I was saying that I Have made my peace with the ups and down of life but I fear one thing, what I fear the most is that I would not want to have bad health, or be in some sort of bed ridden problem, because then I will be a burden on someone which I surely don’t want to be as being a burden will not make them HAPPY. Although thanks to the way things work here in UK, I have sorted out a few things 🙂 Money can do wonders, I tell you , I have spent wisely I believe in taking insurances and making sure the clause is added in the will that when I die the money is used from my account .. Although saying that I do owe some money which to my horror I got to know , but working rigorously to sort that out soon.. 🙂 (more on that later)

What I ideally want is that when my time comes, when the lord of death knocks on my door, I go like a man without taking any grievances against anyone. I would ideally like to go without regret too but in my case I have a lot of them, and also go thinking that those I have done wrong against forgive me , but that is not in my hands.

When death comes it comes swiftly, maybe without pain I just would want to close my eyes , go to sleep and never wake up.. that would be ideal.

I have made up a list of things that I think a person should have to have a happy life, One I have shared HEALTH.. rest will share later on .. Don’t want to make this post something that will make the readers UNHAPPY .. he he he he 🙂

Right since you have come so far let me lighten the mood .. Here is a THEORY .. I wonder how PRACTICAL it will be .. you see

People who Drink get DRUNK
People who get Drunk, Go to SLEEP
People who go to Sleep, Do no SIN
People who do no Sin, Go to HEAVEN
So. SO. Let us all drink and

GO TO HEAVEN

How about it then.. Cheersssssss … SMILEEEEEEeee and Keep Smiling

PS :- I know some of you are going to ask why am i thinking that way , don’t worry I am not dieing or anything 🙂 just as the blog says me and my random thoughts .. some of them sharing here

R.I.P – Finnders

Posted: February 8, 2013 in Life
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Early morning I got the news Last night (uk time) A young officer breathed his last. They say god takes away the good people faster and earlier as he needs Good people with him  and Bad men like me and many others are left here on earth.  

He had gone for a night out with friends, In the early morning of Monday , he was returning home when he got embroiled in a row, he then got punched and was left unconscious in the road.

What sort of people have we become that a fellow human being lost his life over some STUPID argument.. how can this be justified a life snapped in the bud.. What reason can be there to end up someone’s life, to kill a fellow human being.

Rest in peace my friend Finnders (as he was lovingly called), you will be missed always .

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