J – is for JUNE

Hello everyone.  I am not even going to attempt talking about where I have been and whats happened to the A to Z challenge. I am sure you guys are sick and tired of listening to my excuses by now … BUT me being me I will still Rant and Rave 🙂 he he he he

The last Two months have been so chaotic nothing has gone right for me, it seems God has some sort of plan for me or rather No plan for me. This circle of good years – bad years doesn’t seem to break.

Its been such a turmoil , such an extreme that I have gone from getting to stand on a Podium TO a few evenings where I thought whats the best way to kill Myself:), just could not find enough courage to go through with it, basically I am a coward 🙂 ..

Living in UK away from all the friends and family suddenly becomes such a pain, seems to be the worst decision made at such moments of life.

Again there have been some lovely human beings especially from the Blogworld who have been contacting and asking.. So thank you.. YOU LOVELY Human beings, god bless you all.

Here in UK we live in a funny world of human rights which seem to be very very partial towards those who actually are the worst enemies of human rights, Sadly I can’t go into the details of things that have happened.

As of Today I am no more working in the job I was ,for which I worked so hard, I have resigned from my job, I was hoping for some miracle but alas I am not lucky to have miracles. Right or Wrong I don’t know but I just got fed up of the way things were being treated. I was not going to say SORRY for something which I did with my heart and in Full faith that I was doing the right thing.

I am standing by myself but then isn’t that how life has become when things come to the crunch you find yourself standing by yourself, suddenly all those who use to be your best mates at some stage disappear.   The ones who spoke so lovingly about you are nowhere to be seen. I guess such are the way of the world. 🙂

On other hand today I also have a smile on my face and I feel relieved because at least in-spite of all that pressure I stood by my decision NOW we will see what others will do. PHEWWWWWWWwwwwwwwwww , let the funny games begin.  I am not going to say that it was the Right or Wrong decision because I did not want to be in a situation where I would be made to do something that I would not want to do.

Maybe I am Stubborn

Maybe I am Wrong

Maybe I am all just talk  and nothing else

I don’t know, it hurts to know that something that you did with so much passion for so long, even some of the people who loved me hated me for giving so much importance to this job, and something that you loved would come to an end like this..  Five years and then I am able to talk about the episodes that have happened and maybe then when everything is in the open I will get to know if all this was worth it or Not.

One of my old old Blog friends said this to me some time back .. HOW APT… ” when life pulls you,wrenches you, the same life hugs you and kisses you and love you back.. we just need to know to be strong and be positive about life. ” by Aswathy here.

Hey anyone willing to give me a JOB 🙂

SO this is what has been going around in my part of the world , How are you all doing.. and what are you all up to. 

 

Ps. Please I am sorry I have not replied to the comments in previous posts. I will get to them very soon.  Thanks.

Dreams — ?

A few months ago I was writing how dreams come true.. I had just achieved something that I had been wanting all these years,  Life is funny when one is gaining things that one has dreamed we tend to forget what we are losing.. only time tells us all that..

Everyone in the blogworld wished me the best.. 6 month’s been working hard on it.. and now when it is there, things seem to be going all wrong..

Is it just me or does it happen to others too and usually its people very near to you who seem to become or bring roadblocks..

Why . .. I don’t know..

This post is going to one of those that does not make any sense, but one who probably has been through this will understand, I remember I had written that hard work pays.. but along with hard work one needs luck too.. Situations arise such that one becomes helpless.. it seems things are not in your hands any-more.

One dream is fulfilling while the other is getting shattered.. which one do we choose to fulfill, I was a person who had so much confidence on myself, but then suddenly that confidence feels so hollow.

This post is a post where I want to say aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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16Th October was the blog anniversary. I missed it as was stuck with a lot of things happening in life.

I want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart, each one of you who has visited this place and taken time out of your precious time.  Many of you I feel are close friends now, we have this special relation And it is all the love and affection that I have got from each one of you that I am still writing.

With all the problems that are going on, on personal front I almost got rid of the blog.. a few of you realised it for the blog was down for just half a day and sent me those heartening emails.. threatening me when I said I was thinking of penning off..:-)

It’s not good to threaten a person he he he it can be used in the court of law..

Anyway I have completed 3 Years of blogging so yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy….

Thank you so much, and please please consider this a personal thanks.. thank you everyone, you are all great and I know whatever happens on personal front you all will be with me..

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Ps. Sorry I have not replied to all the comments on the previous post. Will reply A.S.A.P.