Relatives.. WHY DO WE HAVE THEM…

Have you ever dreamed or thought what life would be if some moments in life that have gone by turned out different…

Well lately I have been thinking about it a lot , I know I have written about what if this or what if that … anyway have had some pretty tough days in the recent past, hence the thought of what if..

I was the only male child in my family hence spoilt, my grand parents loved me to bits, Daddy as I called my grandpa had a second marriage, my dad being the son from the first marriage, Things were not good but for some reason my grand ma and pa loved me to bits, I remember an episode that I am reminded a lot many times By my Bhua (my dads step sister) she had come from USA to visit us, with her son and daughter, who were same age as me 4 or 5 years old.. I am reminded to this day how there was snake in the courtyard of the house and my grand-ma ran and picked me up , took me inside, I take it for the love for Me. Anyway the reason why I said this was what if My Dads mum had not died and my grand pa was not married again, will there be still the same problems that we had Once my grand pa passed away.

My grand ma loved me so much, I was practically raised by her since my mum was very young when she got married, and suddenly to change. I remember when I was in hostel my grand pa and Ma both coming to visit me every other weekend, The money I got for the festivals… Anything I wanted if my dad said no, I would get it from my grand parents. I spent more time with my grand parents all the time. But all that changed once my grand dad passed away, I remember getting the call early morning about 3 am from my dad telling me about my Daddy, thankfully there was a flight at 9Am, got that ..

I mean my cousins they are all born and live in USA, hardly visited India ever, Suddenly when my grand pa passed away it was like All flights come to india, that’s when the problems started the property, the shops etc etc.. why is there so much greed in people, Why is the sudden love and affection comes into the Fore when someone dies, where were they all when Grand pa was alive. Anyway I am not sure why I am writing this. I have been under a lot of stress with the other side of the family asking me to sell off a part of the property but I don’t want to , after all that is what we have inherited from our parents. How can you just sell it away.

I asked this question from my cousin and I got a mouthful regarding it, I asked them I would buy it off them if they are so keen to sell it off, the calls I got , the threatening calls telling me I dare not come to india, I mean WHAT THE F____.

Hence all this problem and the QUESTION WHAT IF..

What if my real grand mother had not died.. but on other hand the question is why this sudden change in my grand mother suddenly, have I changed or has she.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH relations and relatives why did we have them.. Am I wrong if I want to keep my part of the property, I don’t want to SELL. Moreover why would anyone want to take what is given to them on a silver platter, I have worked hard for where I am now, bought my own house, it is such an elevation a thrill to sign on the dotted line and getting those keys to YOUR OWN HOUSE. I guess it’s the thrill of easy money, the hard work put in by our elders to make the property and other stuff we don’t see, till we have to do it ourselves and have to work hard to earn it ourselves.

Anyway I am glad I wrote this , I have had my rant…. 🙂

Why

WHY are people around us so heartless… or I should ask WHY do they show the stone feelings towards you.  I have had so many questions flying around in my silly little head and each time I try to answer them I fail miserably the one question that flies is WHY…

WHY

Just a small meagre 3 letter word yet it brings so much pain …

WHY do people change, I am not against changing but WHY turn there face, if someone has done wrong is it not better to let the person know what wrong they have done , rather then turning your face and walking away.

I am not sure what sort of person god has made me But WHY is it that I feel bad about what happens or has happened, How can people change so fast or am I missing something.. Sometimes the thought that comes to my mind is there is no place for me in this whole wide world…

I also think that If I disappear or vanish or die or whatever, all the people who once told me they care for me, love me etc etc will it even MATTER to anyone.. for that matter will it be even noticed where is Bikram.. I know I know someone will say it should not bother me, I should move on or I should forget about these people.. BUT is it that easy to do all this ..

I am definitely weird, the more I think the more I realise what a jerk I am for it definitely is not easy for me to move on or forget, I dont say you are a friend , or like a bro or the new lingo on the street these days , you are blood.. If I don’t mean it ..

I consider you a friend, part of family BECAUSE I consider you one, WHY is it so wrong to be like that , IS there no place in this world where you can find genuine people.

There always seems to be some motive behind, keeping relations could be anything money, emotional, love there is some sort of emotion, WHY cant people just be happy with the other person as they are, True I have problems , I am not perfect No one is .. I am good for some – Bad for others.. everyone is but suddenly you turn your face that ain’t right either.. IS IT …

Friendship is one relation I had so much faith in, I use to think friendships don’t change even if people change, Is there nobody out there who thinks the way i think, don’t people sit back  especially when they are alone and think , Wonder what Bikram is doing today, being long since talked to him , lets give him a call .. Or  Haven’t heard from him since ages , Is he ok, is he alive ..

Or

Is it just me who thinks that way 

How come its so easy for you to forget

WHY is it not easy for me ..

Am I really so weird..

WORDLESS WEDNESDAY:- Nothing wordless today lots of Words – Common Wealth games

I am sure most of my article are RANTS on stuff , I was wanting to write these few line since last night when I entered my house and switched on the TELE for the news, The first news on a BBC1, and ITV1.. the headlines was Common Wealth games, along with the pictures of what had happened, Other channels are showing how dirty places are, the threat of Dengue fever.. The pictures are splashed all over

The bridge collapsed

The Village in which the Athletes were to stay… (with a picture of the model room SUPPOSED to be for ready)

The Stadiums

The interview with people who have been shifted and removed

All in all, it was shameful , what India has done has bring SHAME to our great country.. Will someone answer or be held accountable.. 3 years we had known about the games , work did not start till last year… How much or how long will we carry on living the shameless life that we are living…

I am glad the English athletes have pulled out, and the Scottish team has postponed leaving for India. I really wish these games get cancelled… Even if Delhi put up a great show the best show ever in the games Will it be WORTH it after all the Sleaze that has befallen OUR country.

Even if the games go on, what good will it be if the Athletes pull out, the ones whom people would have come to watch …

I have already cancelled my tickets to come, not worth spending so much money when anybody who is into sports here asks me , how much money will be enough for the politicians… I had no answer…

The Sports village is a embarrassment so much so that athletes interviewed from around the world are saying they don’t want to go and sleep in such accommodations.. Look at South Africa or any other 4th 5th 6th world country they would do a proper job.

Is there no limit to our shamelessness, My question to all who reading this ,

WHAT DO YOU FEEL ?

WHAT DO YOU THINK SHOULD HAPPEN ?

are you still wanting for the games to go on … The countries or the athletes who have pulled out of the even did they do the right thing… ?

WHY CANT WE FOR ONCE DO SOMETHING THE RIGHT WAY ?

All these officials, Can i please ask them HOW MUCH MONEY will be enough to stop them taking more,

HOW MUCH IS ENOUGH ?

SM sums it quiet nicely… I would also like all those people who have been telling me or emailing me about how I am looser-traitor , living in Uk, etc all the ones who are ready to give there lives for the country , what are they going to do about this.. are they still going to just say the same stuff they have been saying all along which is one line “I love my country ” .. also… How much more can we take

I was talking to my brother in Delhi a few hours ago, his words are that majority of the SANE people wish the games get cancelled, The educated people understand this They dont want it to happen, the Common man on the streets Dont want it.. So much money has been wasted… Yet again and the DELHI DARBAR has no answers.

SHOULD WE INDIANS BOYCOTT THE GAMES ?

Bharat OR India — Relationships, Morals, Honesty, Families

I was watching a movie where there was a dialogue, that got me thinking.. Which category do we fall in, been reading a lot of blogs by the Patriotic INDIANS, wrote some details on my blog too got a few comments some with me some against me .. which is good, reading all those has made we write the following as to what i think or feel..

We the citizens fall into two categories Indians or Bharatiya.. the reason why I say this is because of the growing gap between the rich and poor. Also, the agenda of DELHI DARBAR is so what questionable,

Do we think the common man is on the agenda of INDIA ? Hence my feelings on Two

INDIA or BHARAT

Many people have said that India  is going leaps and bounds , the astonishing success India has had , all the progress we have made but have we brought the BHARAT with us Or in the zeal to progress and make waves we have forgotten the BHARAT that we started with.

It seems that like the british ruled us and the famous Dialogue that was used so much then “Muthi Bhar Gore, lakhon croron Bhartiyon pe raaj kar rahe the”.. (A handful of britishers are ruling crores of bhartiye) Well

Will I be wrong that today the same dialogue is true too, since a hand ful of families are ruling the billion strong citizens.

I don’t have too much knowledge of other states but look in Punjab the RULING family, why is it that this family is become richer and richer while the whole of punjab is becoming poorer.

There is no water in the state, no electricity, what are the farmers to do, the farmers represent the BHARAT still oppressed by the rich and powerful the people who are now Indians.

There is this beautiful song by a punjabi singer I will put the lyrics and then translate as best in English it sums up everything about the state the difference between India and BHARAT…

Main mitti de naal mitti hona chhunda haan
tainu mitti naalon allergy hai mutiyare             (I want to return to dust,                                                                      but you are allergic to mud my love)

Tuhade karma ch shayad pakke vehde ne
inne maade v nahin saade Dhema Ghare     
                                        (You have Solid houses with courtyards 
                                         but ours made of mud are still very strong)

Tuhadi rakhi kardi POLICE gypsiyaan la la ke
saade munde pehre launde ne aap vichare  
                                           (For your protection Police roams around in gypsies ,
                                            But our own poor youngsters protect us )

Tuhadi billiyan tv ac de which vekhdiyaan
saade dhupan de which marde BALAD vichare 
                                                (The cats in your house watch TV in a AC Room
                                                 Our OX die in merciless Sun)

Saadi hik ton jehdiyaan nehraan langh ke aundiyaan ne
Tuhade lawn nu paani taan lagda hai naare     
                                               (We allow The Rivers to flow on our land ,
                                                Hence you  can water your lawns )

Je kite muh Modte Jattan Ne Ehna Nehraan de
Body ho joogy smelly sun lishkdiye naare     
                                            (If the farmer decided to change the river flows,
                                             your souls and body will start to SMELL)
 
 
So what category do you fall in Are you Indian or from Bharat………?

What has all this success done to us , The India that has gone so far the people or the so called Indians in my view have lost all there values.. lets take the example of RELATIONS..

Look at what is happening to Relations.. A boy and girl fall in love, stay together for 2 – 3 -4 years and then decide to move away, what the hell is that , In the BHARAT days hardly this happened Love was so pure and people were committed , they did not have plans to fall in love use someone and then carry on.. Love has become a charade now.. We fool ourselves to think that it exists WHERE IS IT SHOW ME.. the first thing that comes to a Boys mind is how to bed the girl and the same for the girl.. Look around yourselves how many examples can you find of such relations

Families:- The bharat days had joint families , so many people living under the same roof, true there were arguments fights and all sorts of things but the love , respect was there , My cousins Call me VEERJI and whatever the situation I can say this with pride that they still don’t speak in front of me, I may be wrong or whatever they still don’t say anything, I am so confident that I can go and slap them even , they wont say a word this doesn’t mean they are weak or what , this is called Respect Or as in Hindi NAJAR KI SHARAM.. where the hell is that now, with the so called India, People are moving out, so many fights over properties, land disputes, The young people don’t bother about the elders there own parents ..
We hear stories all around us how the kids have come and settled in western countries and then asked there parents to come over to BABY SIT. How they are treated like servants here …

I dared not think like that about my parents , My dad would have come and Slapped and beaten the shite out of me if i had done that, that does not mean he did not love me

Honesty is another thing, People were honest in the Bharat days, but look now where has all that honesty gone , being honest in today’s day is a crime, I have had so many examples to prove it,

If you are honest you are thought to be a fool.
You love someone with honesty you are a fool
you care for someone with honesty you are a fool
you do anything with honesty you are a fool

What has all this success brought for us other then misery, if and only IF we had moved together taking along everyone with us , along with our ethics and morals we would have been really successful in calling ourself INDIA… Now we live in a era where there are MORE Bharatiyas then Indians.. and believe me the Indians who have gone miles ahead they will have to STOP , wait for the others to come along, even need be take a step backwards or two.. Only then will we be successful else we are doomed …

We have become so mean and selfish , we hardly give a damn about what other might fell, even if we know that we may hurt the other we still carry on with our antics, where are those family values, the Cultural values , the rich heritage we had, We have indeed lost all of them .. to each his own as I have heard so many times.. What will it take or how much hard it is for us to bring a smile on someone …

Will it bring us down if we go slightly out of our way to see a smile on someone…

I guess as i have mentioned a lot many times I am but a emotional fool without any sense, who cares what i say …..

So to all those INDIANS … I am better off being from the BHARAT that I am from all the best to you all .. God bless

To be Continued:-

Vote for me , Vote for me:- Hold on Do I know you

Recently There is new thing that has started on indiblogger.in called  indivine, where you can submit your posts and readers vote for you.

As far as my knowledge says or what i can gather, its upto the readers to read the article and then Vote or Not vote for it. I am a member of this site, I also post my articles for this.

What is irritating now is all these emails that i am getting from people to come and vote for them.

Hello Why should I vote ? I will read the article and Then VOTE if I like the article.

Its becoming like politicians in Indian politics , the moment we post a article start sending emails to ask for Vote, I dont mind getting a email from people introducing there article or blog to me, But Yeah I do mind being asked for Votes.

If your article is good it will get Votes.

Another Thing I will mention is when you come to my blog , and go to comment Please make sure you read the article, So you can comment on that whatever it is good or bad, I dont mind.. but Please dont ask for my Vote as a comment on my article.

I find it rude that you want my vote when you dont have the decency of saying anything about what I have written.

Is there again a RAT RACE to see who has most votes , irrespective of wether its a good article or a crap one.

I thought I was the only one greedy about comments etc but my god. I dont think i have emailed anyone for votes , and if they have not voted you ask them again to vote for you, I got a few emails for the same, NO PROBLEM, But then today I got three emails within 2-3 hours telling me I havenot voted.. Well the Reason why i have not voted is quiet simple.. I did not like your article do you get the message..

To top it up if I have said I will vote then I WILL, give me a chance before you email again saying you cant see the vote. I know you get 2 points for my vote, But please I will vote after reading the article not for the sake of it.  If you dont have my Vote then it means I did not like your article SIMPLE. No hard feelings you can come and put a comment on my articles saying you dont like them, I dont mind.

PS:- Update :- Hi all I am not against Promoting your ARTICLe , yes please do , send a email to me that you have written a article, I will VISIT it and read it and If i like I will VOTE.. DONT PRESSURISE ME TO VOTE FOR YOU.. I will just vote if thats what you want carry on asking then…

Send emails to everyone, paste it on facebook, put posters around , do anything I dont care BUT ONLY to say you have written a article its at this page THATS IT.. Rest leave to the reader to vote or not to VOTE .. Thats all i ask

Pathetic 71 year old Bastard , A F&%$£ up Indian LAW, LOTS OF PEOPLE PASSING THE BUCK, AND 35,000 cost of RAPE

I am devastated, angry and god knows what .. It amazes me , YEAH it does amaze me everytime i read a story like this that how much more can we stoop down to..

In mumbai a girl , a newly born girl is left with the mothers sister, while the parents divorced and left to settle somewhere else, this girl grows to 12 years old and now it is revealed that she has been continously RAPED for a year and half.. by her own cousin, The mother’s sister SON. The son then involves others too.. Including a 71 year old.

This was all in the news on 23rd march 2010, what has irked me more is that all the 5 or 7 accused have been granted bail, and the The 71 year old ailing bastard who could rape a girl younger than his grand-daughter get bail, the defense lawyer wants bail for him… “Sharma is ailing and has to overcome the trauma of facing the allegations against him” the lawyer said.

Is this Defense lawyer MAD or what .. has he not got any sort of heart, has he not got females in his household, or is the MONEY that he will get for fighting this case so important.

Can some SANE person please tell me , why did the JUDGE grant him bail, how pathetic can it get..

The lady judge, Malwani Pawar, granted bail to the five arrested persons—Jamuna Prasad Sharma (71), Jitendra Yadav (25), Vinod Yadav (27), Vakil Ahmed (27) and Premchand Pandit (35)—after each of them paid Rs 35,000 as bail surety.

– First of all this is going on for so long, where was the AUNT.. did she never suspect anything…

– Then there is the school which had the following statement to make

“The staff informed me that the girl was very innocent and an average student. But there were occasions, they said, when she would take 2-3 days leave without informing the school. But we did not realise the matter was so serious. Had the school management learnt about it we would have taken severe action against those guilty,” principal (Marathi medium) S M Deshmukh

Should they not have enquired from the GIRL herself, when she did come back to school , Where was she, informed her AUNT at least about her missing the classes and school

I really want to give a STANDING SALUTE to this school, they are doing a wonderful job with the schooling.

– The lodges where the girl was taken for the pure-beautiful-lovely work, The owners did they not ask why a 12 – 13 year old was coming with different MEN. Will someone ASK them this, They are as much responsible…

– The parents When will someone hold them responsible, is it not a duty of the PARENT till the child is ADULT.. Should they not be questioned.

Police not sure what they are doing, but thankfully they are not torturing the poor girl to change her and make money from the accused, I am assuming this , I dont know.

Then on 2nd april there was another case against a 25 year old woman and The Pune gang rape case will be shifted to a fast track court, home minister R R Patil said in the legislative assembly.

NOW look at the situation a home minister involved, and in the case of the 12 year old nothing , the accused get BAIL..

When will we hang our heads in shame.. WHEN ..

What do we think should be the punishment, Rather HOW CAN WE PUNISH them when the so called lawyers who have read law and know its abouts .. they get the bail done with a pathetic statement that “Sharma is ailing and has to overcome the trauma of facing the allegations against him,” . WHAT TRAUMA what the F&%$ was he doing when he was inflicting the TRAUMA on the little girl..

All these political parties, The Thackreys, The Congress The rest of the CLAN.. create a ruckus over pathetic things as we know… NONE of these so called leaders have said anything.. DO they not read these news, How come they are all shut , I guess too busy in doing things for the prosperity of Mumbaikers.. Or finding something to be in the NEWS… This is what is happening in the City is someone interested or bothered …….

What has this world come to OR AM I TOO STUPID TO THINK OF THIS

Ik Baba Nanak Si :- Sorry another RANT (religion again)…

My brother came from India, and brought with him a lot of cd’s, mp3’s etc etc, well that one thing I get every time someone turns up from India. SO I heard this song, a new song from a singer Babbu Mann. I had heard of a song sung by a singer telling about the greatness of our Guru, Guru Nanak Dev Ji and the bad practices followed by the baba’s these days. I must say here I was mighty impressed with the song…

He sang the truth, Guru ji walked all over the places whereas the new breed of baba’s (well I am ashamed to call them baba’s , because they are not, they are just excellent spokesmen, very good politicians that’s all, they know what to say at what time, what place.. and they are getting the reward for it )..

Check out at you tube the whole plethora of videos, songs, presentations on this new song, everyone has made comments on it, but end of the day It is our fault, the followers especially the Sikh women. Who have gone mad over these so called baba’s, what is the need to touch the feet of one. I know when I write this I will be slagged off by tons of people, But tell me, just answer one question WHAT IS THE NEED.

Sikhism teaches us that there is ONE GURU for SIKHS which is GURU GRANTH SAHIB JI.

Sikhism teaches us not to do Idol worship.

Sikhism teaches us not to go after dhongi, false baba’s.

Then going by just the above rule, it makes the action ANTI SIKH, if we go to a baba, and think of him/her as the guru. The story ends here, END OF… there is nothing to discuss cause right here we failed miserable being a SIKH the moment we think of a HUMAN to be a GURU.

On a bigger picture it is true all these baba’s are so rich, where they getting the money from, even if the followers are giving so much Why is that money not being spent on something worthwhile, rather than make a building for a Gurudwara Sahib, and buying themselves Merc and BMW’s, why don’t they spend the money for the welfare of people. That’s what Sikhism teaches us or does it not. Why not open hospitals, schools for free.

How come the baba travels in a Luxury Merc, I have been working my arse off for years I can’t afford a Merc and I WORK HARD, then he has a troupe an entourage follow him, why does he need that. It’s because of the bad they have done they need protection. If they are so good then I am sure GOD WILL PROTECT THEM, what are they to fear for if GOD IS WITH THEM.

Is it Not this that they teach.. That they are men of GOD.. So why do they need protection .. God Has sent them , God will protect them …

I am disgusted at the ways these DHONGI’s baba’s have come up.. I have this idea , in 10 years time when everyone back in india has forgotten me , I should go back and say BIKRAM BABA JI UK WAALE… I bet i could have a decent fan following.. SO all the people who read this How about supporting me … You can all come to the party, we can earn enough to go a long way .. All you have to do is Start preaching that a Baba has come from UK.. he knows it all…

What say Anyone Party….

Moral from a relation

A man hated his wife’s cat and he decided to get rid of it. He drove 20 blocks away from home and dropped the cat there. The cat was already walking up the driveway when he approached his home.

The next day, he decided to drop the cat 40 blocks away but the same thing happened.. He kept increasing the number of blocks but the cat kept coming home before him.

At last he decided to drive a few miles away, turn right, then left, past the bridge, then right again and another right and so on until he reached what he thought was a perfect spot and dropped the cat there.

An hour later…. The man calls his wife at home and asked her, “Jen is the cat there?” “Yes, why do you ask?” answered the wife.

Frustrated the man said,” Put that damn cat on the phone, I am lost and I need directions to reach home!!!

Moral:

“How much ever we dislike somebody, someday we will need their assistance. So never worry how many people dislike you … ”

and Loads will be there who dislike you.. even the people who say they love you will dislike you.. they will be thinking of someone else when saying they love you..
But be BRAVE and STAND TALL… Because everyone will match there alike .. if they break your heart someday someone will break theres .. to make them realise ..

If they dislike you .. then someday someone will dislike them with so much hatred they will have a chill go down there spine …

Crime Watch – Sick F&%$ing Men

There is a program on Tv which comes once a month I think (not sure), called CrimeWatch.. It really disturbed me a lot last night.. apart from the usual that comes on it .. burglary, theft, GBH, or attempt.. What really shocked me was

A 13 year old beautiful girl, is sitting on a Bus stop in BROAD-DAYLIGHT, a Guy comes out of no where and sits next to her and starts to Fondle her, do Gross things RIGHT AT THE BUS STOP IN BROAD DAY LIGHT.. then he took her to a secluded place and ___ And then leaves to catch a train Calmly as if Nothing has happened. GET SHOCKED.

What has made me so mad about this is that

Its Broad Daylight..

People are there ,

Bus is stopping,

People are getting on to the Bus and NOONE gives a F&*% about what is going on Right there in Front of them. They are watching, This Guy almost drags the poor girl, people are on the Road.. ARE THEY F*&%$£& BLIND..

What has this world come to .. ?
Is no one interested in anything anymore.. ?
Have we become so F%&$*£$ Cowards.. ?

I am raging at the moment, god knows why , I feel really angry, VERY ANGRY.. Why would a Man do such a thing.. He want to have SEX with someone , Bloody hell Go to a corner of a road, find a bloody prostitute, pay her 10 bucks and get yourself releaved.. For F*&* sake… There are ample of prostitutes on british streets to do the favour for 10bucks… If you are so bloody aroused use them.. HOW will you feel if I did this with your daughter , your wife….

Such people dont deserve to Live.. they need to be caught and there ___ cut off.. Ridiculous.. a 13 year old girl.. What is this bloody world coming to.

The people who saw all this need to be ashamed of themself, as they say in hindi.. CHULLU BHAR PAANI MAIN DOOB MARO… If someone did this to your family you guys will be the first one to blame police, people everyone.. Now it is happening to someone else you are mere spectators..

What does it take to dial 999, Even if it a BOYFRIEND/GIRLFRIEND… HUSBAND/WIFE… So what.. Ring the police tell them “You think it is an Assault happening.. “ It becomes a Response call or immediate then .. the police Has to do something.. Worst case scenario.. the couple (IF THEY ARE) will get a nasty surprise and a telling off to Do it indooors.. BUT on other hand a Innocent 13 year old is Saved..

Or

If you dont have Phone.. you are in a Bus.. which is about to move.. If you are so afraid of yourself.. JUST SHOUT at top of your voice .. “OYE .. what do you think you are doing”.. THATS ALL IT TAKES… if its a genuine couple fine you will get a abuse back or a middle finger.. But if they are not .. The guy might get afraid and run away .. YOU save a innocent 13 year girl..

The police should find out who the people were at that time on the bus stop , who saw and TAKE THESE PEOPLE TO TASK.. These idiots, cowards are worst then offender.. at least we know the offender.. But these people are equally involved and are equally responsible.

I am Very angry AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

God please please give me the strength that I dont chicken out if I see anything like this PLEASE…..

Country roads — read at own risk

I am crying today .. oh yes , its just one of those days when nothing seems to go your way. I want to go home, let my mum fuss around me. Let her say how good i am , shower numerous praises on me.

Country roads .. take me Home ..
To the place I belong …
I hear a voice in the morning how she calls me
The radio reminds me of my home far away
Drivin’ down the road I get the feelin’

That I should been home yesterday yesterday
TAKE ME HOME

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I have been a F*%&$£” looser all this time.. AHHHHHHHHHH I would kill someone today
Got up in morning, went the gym and did bugger all, cause the moment I went to do chest press the bloody machine broke…

Then thought leave the weights go for a swim, picked my stuff went to the changing room only to find that I had not got my trunks in the bag, I am very short tempered sometimes so by this time I was fuming at myself.

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Ended up going on the treadmill.. shower and came out to find Some Idiot had hit my car, HOW CRUEL can it be, it was parked perfectly fine so now I am without back lights, went into enquire if the cctv has got the number plate of the car for insurance purpose, Guess what a big NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO…. the cctv is there but it was not recording.. the idiots had forgotten to put it to record, WHAT USE IS IT TO HAVE THE CCTV…. more AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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Came to work to find that last night there was a power cut, so my machine had got rebooted, which meant all the work i had done after the last SAVE, was lost.. especially the SQL queries.. that had been written for testing that makes me MAD , cause it takes ages to get the query right, yesterday I had spent lot of hours optimising a query which was taking more than a hour to run , over internet to 26 minutes , I HAD LOST THAT …. more aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh my manager and a collegue have had earfull of my moaning today…

Its a CONSPIRACY .. a saazish.. it is a PLOT.. to bring me down,, everything is planning to bring me down … I thought I will write it down and take my anger over here… dont know if i will post this or not .. lets seee…