Archive for the ‘Me’ Category

The rewind button on the different music apps makes one think if we can have a rewind button in life too.. They do say that Hindsight is a boon, But sometimes the same hindsight also shows us what a prick we have been .. the concept of WHAT IF .. comes into action.

What if 2013 did not come, or what if the decision one took was a different one, BUT then everyone also says Destiny ..What has to happen will happen no matter what we do. So the decisions made would have been made irrespective of what the hindsight tells us now.

Very confusing, recently I was so fed up of everything that was going on around me that I thought of rewinding back the clock , So I went to a couple of places for 2 days only to try to relive the time that has gone back. It was not the same but I did have a smile for a few hours on my face.

Sometimes we make dreadful and very very wrong decisions, the worst thing is those decision can’t be taken back and we have to live our entire life with them, the clocks cant to rewound , whats done is done, friends turn to foes, people we love turn to people who hate us.   I do wish that there is a way in this world where we can make things right after they have been completely destroyed by us only.

If someone else has destroyed those it probably is easy to forget or at least live with the hate we have for them, but what if the one who has destroyed it is you , yourself. What do you do..  I know many people say that they don’t remember or have moved on, But I for one have not been able to forgive myself. I know I have done wrong VERY WRONG, how do we make it right.   If we had the opportunity to tap that Rewind button then I would have surly done it by now.

So I spent a couple of days last week roaming on the streets, trying to freshen up the memory of the not so distant past, it is still as if it was yesterday, God what a fool I would make of myself getting excited over Eating those masala Corn, one gets in cinema halls, or eating the lovely chicken in a restaurant, Riding a auto-rickshaw, looking at a Enfield bike and shouting ohhh “BULLET”…

I have always maintained that if I was to live my life all over again , I would do the same , make the same mistakes because I am what I am — (Good-Bad-Ugly) because of those mistakes or decisions… But as with everything else Exceptions are always there, I too have one which I would not want to repeat, this will probably haunt me for the rest of my life but the damage has been done , I dont see any way how it can be rectified.

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The rewind button …………

 

 

PS:- My apologies for not answering to the comments on previous post , and also not visiting all the lovely blogs. I will do that Soon.

Hello Everyone .. I realised that the last post was the 300th post once I pressed the publish button..  I usually have done tags and published the awards that have come my way over the time on such occassions,  So this is one of those posts.

A.

Got a Award from Jhanvi

She had condition to getting this “award” (though no compulsion)  – an honest criticism of Her blog, So I have one request for all the readers PLEASE when you comment Do give me a honest Criticism of the blog that i have. I dont mind anything maybe it will help me in writing better .. Thank you.

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Another Award from Destination Infinity  , MaverickShree and Chhavvi

I am to write 7 things about myself .. which I have written here .. so please click 🙂

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I was recently tagged by Smitha from  Any Excuse to Write…

What this is about: To unite bloggers (from all sectors) in a joint endeavor to share lessons learned and create a bank of long but not forgotten blog posts that deserve to see the light of day again.

Rules:

1) Blogger is nominated to take part

2) Blogger publishes his/her 7 links on his/her blog – 1 link for each category. The links are:

– Your most beautiful post

I love all my posts, I know everyone says the same , but then I cant decide which one is more beautiul than the other, Since when I am writing at that precise moment that is most beautiful. I will cheat from Smitha and ask a question here.. When you are commenting DO tell me Which one you think is the best Article I have written.. Go on give it a try?

– Your most popular post

It seems one of the recents posts on my birthday has been most popular.. 11-11-11 It’s got the most comments

– Your most controversial post

I think I get into trouble in a lot of posts I write especially about the nation, and on NRI’s who are settled here abroad., But I liked writing the one on Slut walk and the comments that came after that were good too , it was fun replying to them all too , Another was the One where I asked the Terrorists to kill the parasites of our great nation rather than killing the innocent hard working people, that brought a lot of lovely comments too .. to the fact that I was said to have written to it just to get a few comments 🙂 .. To the Terrorist.

– Your most helpful post

Well Again how do I know, I have found that sometimes the post that we write to say something rarely get read or commented upon, while some stupid posts which are either put for the sake of putting one or just a picture gets a lot of Comments, Maybe its sign people telling me how bad a writer I am 🙂 …    I think since christmas is round the corner Would like people to read this one on Drink and Drive.

– A post whose success surprised you

Now that is a Good question, Frankly each and every post that I have written brings a surprise, For I think I am still learning and have got a long way to go.  Lot of my friends have given me advices, Some have shown  surprise with eyebrows raised thinking have I written or HOW did I manage to write that post.

– A post you feel didn’t get the attention it deserved

Some of the posts that I have written on problems faced and how the Govt is taking us for granted probably needed more attention by fellow bloggers.  Farmers of our nation.. They are the backbone of our country

– The post that you are most proud of

I am proud of a lot of posts. I am a emotional person and I live a lot with memories missing a lot of people , my posts on my Father, my Friends , My village are very close to me. I usually write what i feel irrespective of what others think :).  I have a few to mention here ..   Fathers Day , Anupinder , Ravjote, Babbar

3) Blogger nominates up to 5 more bloggers to take part.

Now the Fun time in who to Tag, 5 for me is too less but I will try to keep it to 5.

1. Insignia
2. Punam
3. Sandhaya
4. Harman
5. Destination Infinity

Thank you everyone for all the love and care you have shown me and my blog over the last 2 years ..

About ME – Save water Drink Beer….

Posted: April 30, 2010 in Me

I have been wondering about myself.. You know we go to some sites they ask us to create our profiles etc , and then write something about ourself .. The dating sites.. Blogging sites.. etc etc (yeah before everyone raises there eyebrows.. I am talking general.. I dont visit dating sites OK OK not that OFTEN he he he )

So what do we write in there, do we know about ourselves so much as we think, or is it people around us who know us better.

Here is an attempt of what I think of myself Loads of people who read will differ because many of you have not met me.. or know me as a person.. But still I am assuming quiet a few would have a inkling of HOW I am.. “Liar, Honest, Pathetic, dependable etc etc .. “

I think of myself as a Normal, common man having same aspirations as millions have, nothing out of blue.. I just want to me a millionaire, have tons of girl friends he he he .. no jokes apart..

Really I never had very high aspirations, I never had a thought of coming abroad, Not even till my final year in college. I was a normal kid, not good in studies but ok in sports.. Always wanted to be in the indian army..

Sat for the IMA exams 4 times cleared Each time, but for some reason SSB interview I was not good enough and for some odd reason I come abroad and am a officer here.. Not going through the SSB interview was one thing that hurt me, cause had not thought of any other thing, always was so sure I will get through the army.. Even joined a coaching place , talked to a few officers , my uncle was a brigadier , he was like There is no way I WILL NOT get through, it was on the BOARD.. anyway it happened and it HURT…

I am very emotional I must say, I have tears coming sometimes when I am alone thinking of stuff just random stuff.. dont know if that is Pathetic or what…

I have made some wrong decisions and I accept them thats what makes us what we are Today I think. Its all these silly, stupid things we have all done while growing up that we Now KNOW are silly and stupid. If we had not then We would not know.

Back home in india I use to love going to movies or chilling with mates, We had such a big group, did some naughty things together, brings a smile on my face now.. HAve had a pretty decent life so far. I will one day sit down and Write about some of the things we did .. am sure will bring out a smile on all who read.

I miss people a lot, I remember almost everything that has happened so far, I can fairly remember the faces of all the people I know and there Names too.. And Yeah something weird I remember most of the Phone numbers. I also miss my home.

I hate people who are two faced, to me IF you have said something or you have promised something then its a MAN’s word why should you step back from it.

I am of the beleif that you should stand by your friends right or wrong, thats what friends are for, no matter what, I rarerly have made enemies but I am positive of one thing that if I cut off with someone then that person has no chance of being back in my good books 🙂

The only thing I hate about myself is that

Why am I so emotional

Why am I such a idiot

Why am I like this

Why does it matter to me if the world is collapsing, or the neighbours house is being burgled. Why do I have to stop when I see a guy following a girl and trying to pinch her purse or harass her, Who the hell is she or he to me .. WHY do I do that..

Why did I need to interfere when the guy who was drunk fell down on the pavement and Two other guys were going through his pockets and His mates who he had come with, were standing there being a spectator and Laughing over the stupidness of there friend.

These questions are constantly disturbing me, I constantly think of ways to change myself but I fail miserably …

Great I did say its difficult to write about ourselves .. don’t know what else to write anyway this was something about me… Now all who read know a bit more about me 🙂