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Here we are , the 11th of November. I am going to start this post with the following I read long time back..

” when life pulls you,wrenches you, the same life hugs you and kisses you and love you back.. we just need to know to be strong and be positive about life. ” by Aswathy here.

That is such a lovely thought ,  I know LIFE is such that you either love it or you hate it .. and those who love LIFE have a lovely life too and those who hate soon learn how to love life.

Today is a special day too as its Diwali so it seems the whole world is going to celebrate my birthday 🙂 and everyone knows how much i love fireworks, if I could I would light some fireworks all day long, since childhood i have been crazy about fireworks But sadly this year I am not celebrating Diwali due to a family mishap.

Since morning everyone has been sending messages -emails , whatsapp these days has become a necessity.

Before I get carried on let me first of all wish every reader and Visitor.. Wishing you-Your Family and EVERYONE Around you a very happy Diwali

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I always say God has been very Kind to me, I am sure he has a special place for me 🙂 Over the years I have had some dreams , actually a LOT of dreams some have come true , some have got lost and hopefully Some more will get fulfilled as time goes on. So today is My birthday too 🙂

11th November 2010

In college we had these dreams that as we grow old and start working, we will become independent , do this and that.. but it’s not that way.. as you grow responsibilities grow, priorities change , looking at the world differs, things which mattered than .. Don’t matter NOW. All those dreams we had, all friends will take up a job in same company and have fun but it was not to be. I am an average person. Everyone or well most people are confident in themselves to a level, but there is always self-doubt, should I do this or that , will I be successful, am I doing the right thing. I have my doubts at times. I also long for what everyone longs for Love, caress, appreciation, (you guys reading this write a comment HOW GOOD IT IS.. yes go on please please please .. he he he he )

In all these years I have done a lot of wild things, a few wishes have come true like

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Wanted to fly….. did it ( gliding and then the Flying

Wanted to be a good at sports – I been in nationals for hockey

Wanted to visit places — work in progress, been to Spain-America-Canada-Australia- Brussels- Dubai-Singapore- France-etc etc.

Wanted to do a few of the dangerous sport activities Bungee jumping, parachuting, skydiving, Have done the Sky dive and NOW have given up the idea of bungee jumping , don’t like the idea for some reason.

Wanted to do white water Rafting and other silly things , have managed to do them all now 🙂

I want to go to Disneyland in Florida.. Oh yes I do .. its nothing of being childish .. every person has a child hidden in them.. I do want to go and do it some day …

I also Want to do something like this 🙂  I want to Do this stunt myself .. I told my friend and they said “ARE YOU MAD“… But what fun it would be, and in case it goes wrong then No chance of surviving so all the better, because I would not want to be in an accident and live a broken life.

The one thing I am dyeing to do is go on a Safari in Africa , in a Hot air balloon, Imagine the drift flying you and then in the middle of it Pffft Pfffft Pfffft oooops the engine or whatever  it is stops … and you are slowing going down.. down .. you look down .. GUESS what .. A PRIDE is watching with those sweet innocent eyes , tongues hanging out , occasionally slurping with the thought of fresh MAN MEAT .. YUMMY .. .

Another thing I want to do is drive all the way to India, Yes , drive it all the way to India..at some stages actually had serious talks with a group of maniacs like me to do it , we just did not have that much money to buy the cars , else we just might have done it .. Just imagine .. wow.. I am getting an adrenalin rush just thinking about it… A road trip exploring various places around the world, Turkey, Istanbul,  Greece, Italy,Iran, Austria, Pakistan.. imagine the amazing places. I know a lot of people have done it so why not do it myself. ONE DAY GOD WILLING I TOO WILL.

More maybe next time .. What about you people out there anything ….

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Hello everyone , Like last week here is another one that you might like .. it is a slow song .. enjoy.


Ki hall hai tera mudat pichon takri hain

main v Badliya howanga par tu v vakhri hain

dooron-2 takda reha bula vi nahin sakia

main kam dil jeha tere nede aa v nahi sakia

likh ke tera naam mein sajde karda rehnda san

tu mera naam likh ke kade mitaundi c k Nahin

How are you – we met after ages

I will look changed and you look different too

Kept looking from far- could not call you

Me a No-one could not come near you either

I would write your name and look at it 

DID you ever write my name and erase it

mere baare hun ki tera kheyal main nahi puchda

ohna dina ch dasde mainu CHAHUNDI C K NAI

I am not asking what you think of me NOW

 BUT did you ever love me or wanted me THEN

Chutti vele appo apne pinda nu Jaana

Tera pata nahin par mere dil ghatda hi jaan

jehri thaan ton apne pind ne raah nikharde c

jehri thaan te o v apne vaang vicherde C

Bulliya vich muska ke tera mur k dekhna oh

Jaande jaande nazar aa de naal matha Tekna Oh

Ki daassa k pedal kinni parre lagde sun

Cycle hauli mere vang chalaundi c k nahin

School finished we went to our own villages

Dont know about you but my heart kept sinking

The place where the roads to our village parted

The place where like us -they parted too

A smile on your lips when you looked back at me

As you went the way your eyes said Bye

What can I say how hard the Pedals Felt 

Did you Too ride your Bicycle slowly like me

mere baare hun ki tera kheyal main nahi puchdaohna dina ch dasde mainu CHAHUNDI C K NAI I am not asking what you think of me NOW BUT did you ever love me or wanted me THEN
Kho Kho volley ball te pid vich firdiya mell diyanVehle period de vich bharah(12) taani khel diyaMainu yaad hai mere vaal eshare hunde cSach dassi ki charche mere bare hunde c

Tere naa te yaad hai menu cherreya kaiyaan ne

Mere naa te tenu koee bulaundi c k nahin

In the games fieldIn the free class ,we went to play outsideI remember your friends would point at meTell the truth what did they say about meMany teased me with YOUR NAME DID anyone call you by my NAME
mere baare hun ki tera kheyal main nahi puchdaohna dina ch dasde mainu CHAHUNDI C K NAI I am not asking what you think of me NOW BUT did you ever love me or wanted me THEN
Paadan likhan veele de zindagi changi hundi haiCharri na latthi na fikar na tanggi hundi haichutkalla ya kahani ya kuch hor sunaude neClassroom de vich student gaane gaaunde neMere jo kalaam OH bahute tere naam ne…Ni tu koi gaana mere bare gaaundi c k nahin Student life is very niceNo fuss,no end of moneyWe tell jokes and all to each othersSinging songs in the ClassroomsMy most writings are all in YOUR NAME Did you Ever sing any song for me
mere baare hun ki tera kheyal main nahi puchdaohna dina ch dasde mainu CHAHUNDI C K NAI I am not asking what you think of me NOW BUT did you ever love me or wanted me THEN
Khaabare tu aakhe o pyaar nahi kuch hor hi cCharhi jawani di bhul c kuch chir di lod hi cPar aishque shayer bachpan vaang masoom hi rehnde neEk paase vishwas ch hi zindagi kad lainde ne“DEBI” ne kai saal tera naam likhiya taariyan teTu v dass kade hawa ch ungalla vaundi c k nahin Maybe U feel it was not love but something elseA wrong doing because of YOUTHBUT poets-writers-lovers remain naïve like a Child in childhoodThey can live life on a one sided loyaltyI wrote your name on stars for a LOT OF YEARS Did you EVER write my name with your fingers in AIR
mere baare hun ki tera kheyal main nahi puchdaohna dina ch dasde mainu CHAHUNDI C K NAI I am not asking what you think of me NOW BUT did you ever love me or wanted me THEN


I have been  reading a few posts the last few days, so much wrong is happening in this world. On my post about the 10 month old baby being sodomised, I got a comment from  Kiran  asking ” Isn’t this the same planet where our ancestors lived with, less sickening morale & societal issues?”  to which my I nodded profusely.  It is so sad that we are just not developing as Human’s , rather it is a like Running Downhill, and we will not leave any  stone unturned to show how cruel we have become.

And it’s not just in India this happens its becoming quiet common everywhere else too, Recently there is a case here in UK where a couple Ilyas Ashar and his wife Tallat Ashar from Eccles, Greater Manchester trafficked a deaf girl of the age of 10 into Britain and kept her as a slave for nearly a decade.  During her ordeal living as a servant and slave, she was repeatedly raped as well as beaten and locked in the basement every night.  The basement served has her sleeping place, with no bed just a concrete floor.  Without access to either water or a toilet in the basement, she suffered mentally as well as physically, despite having disability she received no sympathy from her ‘owners’  (I am quoting my friend The British asian blog ).

As you read the article it makes you angry, frustrated, helpless thinking what the hell, how can one human do this to another human.. About 4 weeks ago I had a similar situation, I can’t discuss much on that case, a girl had been smuggled from an eastern european country for prostitution, The look on her face , the way she looked at us questioning eyes, as if asking “WHY ME”,  she did not know much english so it was becoming difficult to understand what she was saying. She would not accept to talk to an interpreter too , she was so afraid.  No documentation , No money, No ID on her, It is moments like this that I feel helpless and then the animal instinct wakes up to pick up a weapon and shoot those who did this to her. (Please don’t ask any questions as I will not be able to reply to any of them ) .. Sorry

Another post by Ria, who I read regularly  tells the same story about how a girl was betrayed by her so-called boy friend, who spiked her drink , taking her to a friend’s place where the girl was raped by friends. Such incidence of drink being spiked are getting very common these days, I wonder who are these people who spike the drinks with the motive of raping a person, If sex is the only reason then there are a lot of places that one can buy sex, whats wrong in that .. rather than spoil someones life , buying sex seems to be fair in comparison to such act of mindless ruthless madness.

The reason why I sat down writing this post is to have a think where is our society going, what are we doing to rectify it , It is becoming more and more complicated to try to imagine the reasons of why is this, PLEASE lets not bring this all man-woman thing into it , I am sure a lot of people are raring to write its all MEN fault.  I am sure there are a lot of reasons that need to be addressed. I know a man is responsible and he is at fault but then what about the same crime done by women.

I say so because a friend of mine was in relation with this girl,  it went on for four years , with all those promises of living life together, making plans , parents agreed to their marriage, suddenly one fine day she wants out and that too when the time they had decided to wait was about to finish in a month of so , when the time had come to tie the knot, Yes the girl might have had her reasons to do so, Yes she has the right to break a relation as and when she wants to, YES to everything anyone is going to ask. BUT did it not matter to her at all..

They had spent 4 years of life together through ups and downs, been sleeping together .. Now don’t you think this is RAPE too ?   Although it was consensual but it was an act performed with all the promises which in the end was a betrayal, a TRUST broken.   I have given this example because as I mentioned it’s not always a MAN who does this to a woman , women too do such acts. If  in this story it was the guy who had said his good-bye and moved on to another girl a lot would have said all men are like that.. Hence me using the word mankind, humans..

How does anyone expect this man to trust anyone anymore.

I have been thinking (which is a laugh I know), where is mankind going to, Trust is one thing that is being questioned all the time , I mean after hearing the above incidents I would not trust anyone, The girl trusted her boyfriend look what he did to her, My friend trusted the girl look what happened,  Trusting a friend who would bring her to UK  for a better life made a girl a prostitute. Trusting an elderly couple made a kid live like a slave and go through such horrific times at a tender age of 10.

Why have we become so trustless ?

Why are we not happy or satisfied with what we have?

Why do we always keep looking for something else ?

Why can’t we keep our LUST in control ?

Why has our HEART BECOME BLACK ?

This reminded me of some beautiful words written by another blogger friend   Sh@s.. I am quoting the line .. I hope you don’t mind, (if you do let me know I will remove it, sorry)

जीने की लत थी हमे
शुक्रिया आपका,
उसे तोड़ने के लिए
I was addicted to life.
Thanks to you,
For de-addicting me.
I don’t know why I am writing this post or what I am trying to say .. I guess its one of those thoughtless posts which I write to waste the time of all the readers who read .. So I am sorry for that.

It’s the lack of sleep I think playing tricks on my mind.

PS:- sorry I have not replied to all you lovely people in the last article Will come to it soon .. just rushed off my feet at the moment. THANK you all for the lovely views on DAAN. 🙂

Main Haale Nahin Marda

Posted: December 6, 2011 in Abuse, Badla, Cheaters, Die, Hate, Love, Loyalty
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Tutde rishte zakham bahut doonge de jaande
Par Zakhman di peed nu sehna aa hi Jaanda

                          Breaking of relation give deep bruises
                          But one learns how to deal with them

Tere Dhokiyaan te Jhoote waadiyan ne kita hai adhmoya
Tute te ujade dil  de pathar lagde ne pyare hun

                          Your cheating and false promises have left me half dead
                           But broken and ruined stones in my heart I like now

Sochan which hain mangdi saadi maut da farmaan
Ik gal da hai yakeen Tere wangu Rab nahin karda dhokha
Mann ne haale nahin marna

                          You probably wish for me dead
                          I do KNOW for sure that God is not going to betray me
                          Mann (me) is not gonna die so soon

Duavan haan Teri lai mangda..
Rab kare dil tere diyan pooriyaan hon har muradaan

                          I wish for your happiness 
                          May god give you and grant every of your wish

Door kadi jad akali tun hain baithen
Chees tere dil which waar waar eho Uthe
Das ni rakaane tun idan kyun kita..

                        
                          Far away when you are alone sitting
                          let there be this pain in your heart which keeps saying to you
                          Why oh Why did you do this

Disclaimer :- A NONSENSE POST — Lots of thoughts going through my mind .. Weird ones ..

Over the years and time I have experienced and Heard this Line Everything in Life comes with a lot of luggage.. you say something to someone when you are emotional.. it takes a whole new meaning ..  a lot of external situations come into the whole scenario .. I have experienced that ..

What is love.. Why does love come with all the its and buts … If two people love each other than what is a whole load of plethora that comes in between..

We are taught a lot of stuff as we grow up , one of them is that we will meet someone , a lovely person and that we will have our very own happy ending ..  Each story we read or we are told tells us , implores us to wait for that special one , for that One person that will come into your life and somehow transform it into a New something …

Tell us to Wait for that unexpected declaration of love , No one tells us though how long we got to wait 🙂 .  and  in all this we sometimes lose the plot, in all this commotion , teachings, stories, experiences and focusing over the plot we still end up meeting the wrong person 🙂

We read the wrong signs ..

We lose our way and sometimes the will to think too .. to think logically and sanely, to use the messages .. To use the experiences .. to learn a lesson from the experiences.

We are unable to tell from the ones who want us and the others who don’t and WORSE  from the ones who are only there to use us, Like we do with a Mango.. you suck it dry and then throw it in the bin or worst still in a garbage heap lying in the corner of a road. .. USE YOU oh yes they do with such precise calculated moves..

We are Unable to tell from The ones who will be there for a while , be a leech and when there wishes are over they part ways.

From the ones who will stay from the ones who will leave ..

Then I hear people say MOVE ON.. I mean what is Moving on ..  Maybe Picking up pieces and Starting all over again , freeing ourself for something better in future .  Maybe the happy ending of this manipulated-dirty-Cheap-calculating relation is the MOVING ON.. Or

Maybe The Happy ending is the Happy Knowing that through all the broken hearts,  through all those misread signs .. through all that feeling of being used up.. through all that crap  ..

Through all that time spent with someone Disloyal.. with someone who is a CHEAT .. someone who was False .. someone who was with the black heart .. someone who was just a user .. someone who just wanted the money .. someone who just wanted the SEX .. now not with you but with someone else …. Maybe thats Moving on..  

Maybe in all this Time we never gave up hope  and maybe we will find that one person … or WILL WE…

Was Reading this article by Ajay (stole his articles title too Sorrreeeeeeeeeeee)  on the campus Jottings .. A few points reminded me of fun things when I was in college  few of the points that come to mind

1. End of year Standing in Que to get the Roll numbers only to find out that I cant get the Roll number as I have Lectures shortage in almost every subject.

2. Going to Punjabi Mam, she was so beautiful who smiles when I ask “Mam Lecture poore kar deo Please” (Mam please complete my lectures).. awww blesss she did ..

Then walking to English Teacher Mr. N who I find out today of all the days When I go home in evening sitting with my DAD.. They are class mate’s…  “OH £$%£”..  what do I do now, Dad will know and it will be chaos.. Phewwww he smiled, did not say a word.

 Next day I went to him, I only had to say “Sir”..

“Tun dasiya nahin tun Mann da munda hain”.. (you did not say you are Mann’s son) .. He completed all my lectures, you see  I was good in english and represented college few times ..  

right Two gone .. Three more subjects

3. Going to another professor who for some reason was having a bad day, “Jo karna hai kar le ” .. (do what you want to ) .. Not Poora Karoing (could not find the english word he he he 🙂 ) .. your lectures .. and I have 75 short .. 

Ravjote Walks in the Lecture Room, “Oh sir , Kar deo poore .. Tuhada ki jaanda ” .. (sir please do, whats it to you) ..

He refuses, what was worst was 1st year students are having their practicals and it had to be all GIRLS.. The silly girls burst out laughing on hearing Ravi..  Which makes the professor more mad..

“Iske lecture poore nahin karne “.. Not completing this guys lectures .. he says pointing to me …

Ah well I tried the good way ..

Finding a way how to get roll numbers .. Get hold of a guy who is responsible of posting Roll numbers to college from the university 🙂 .   don’t need to go to the other Two teachers  🙂  sorteddddddd

4. End of year Viva Exam , my Physics lecturer asking Am I sure I am a student of that class , He has not seen me the whole year in any of the lectures.

5. Sector 11 Inspector who is known for talking with his DANDA, He would without any reason beat up students or who he did not like.. He is walking through the college Suddenly a Voice echoes

                        “Karnail Singh Kuteeee” …  (karnail singh you dog)….

                         Pin drop silence .. sudden hustle bustle .. corridor empty …

finding myself in LT1 (lecture theatre).. with  O (my friend)

Rather panting and exciting he says .. “I said it .. bloody hell .. first reaction is to slap him .. then having a hearty laugh.

More to come .. Meanwhile Why dont you share something from your college days .. I bet it will bring nostalgic moments …  Lets hear them ..

BlogJunta - An ode to the Blogosphere

Over the last few weeks and months I have read a lot on the topic, it has ranged from people saying Men are the worst thing ever , how women will be happy without men . Men calling how women behave etc etc etc.. I have gone and put my views on a few of the blogs where the articles have written the replies to some have been funny and made me smile.

So let’s be frank and throw away all the hesitations we have, Slut walk is/was organised by people to let other people know that it’s not the women who invite men to rape them by the way they dress up ,  That is what I think is the MAIN point although there are a billion branches to it which my small mind cant cope with.

I am writing this post to put my views on all this Walks , holding discussions , meetings etc as far as I am concerned Dont help there are reasons behind that, Has a walk or a demonstration ever helped anyone and I mean that in context to OUR country INDIA, not referring to any other nation because I don’t believe taking examples of other nation will help us , things don’t work the same in our nation.

My question is to all the people (male-female and any other category which is human included) .. the reason I put that in brackets is I am sure someone out there reading this will say I am talking only of females , yeah I get that a lot so to be POLITICALLY CORRECT I put all..  right the question is will this walk really help.. or has it helped ..

Again please hold your horses and take your fingers off that trigger .. and listen to what I have to say

I am not undermining anything, I totally support all kinds of walk , dharna’s , agitations etc .. BUT my question is to all those who are quiet vocal,

what will they do if they found out that the person who eve teased or raped or molested is from their own house.. will they still want that male to be castrated …

All these crimes are done by a Male (again please I mean MAJORITY) though females too do it but lets assume here its a male who is the culprit .. Dont you think we should be teaching  the MEN the male in our own house , in our own room for things to make a difference, I strongly believe that Once that happens then the things will change.

I feel that the BASIC MENTALITY of a  MALE needs to be changed..  After all the rapist or the man who is eve teasing , or even thinking of it .. IS from our society and maybe from our own home ..

1. How many people will be there in the march, Pardon me for being a idiot but as far as i understand a Indian mindset many of them in the march will be going back to there own home shutting the door and then BITCH about it, Tell me if i am wrong in that …

2. How many of the people actually in the march will go home and to there Husband-Son-Father and point out to them that the way they look at a girl is not good.

3. How many MEN who are supporting this march will on a friday night get drunk or have a few drinks and then do the same thing against which they are standing up now. by this i dont mean they will go and Rape or molest someone I mean talking amogst their own friends .. Oh how sexy that girl is , look at her legs , this and that…

4. A baby boy grows , starts school , comes back home after a few days Mommy is probably the first one to ask “KOI GF banai”..  A girl is taught and instructed about social conduct, given guidelines about how to dress and behave in public in general. But a boy is seldom/never taught about these things at home esp with regard to conduct towards girls. He learns from his peers, from the media which shape up his misguided notions which slowly get entrenched. Something needs to be done in this direction too.  (copied this from Ajay’s comment..)

I am copying “It is cool to address women as chick, babe, figure, item..It is cool if you are known for your ‘long legs’…It is cool to ignore certain men who ‘compliment your gorgeous shirt/top’ with all the wrong intentions..it is cool to get a million likes when you wantedly put up a pic of you lounging by the beach ( yes, I know some ex-classmates who will do anything for attention. They are still insecure like hell. The funny part is they are showered with attention only when they put up such pics. I am in no way supporting ‘it is women who provoke men’ policy but I am convinced it is because of low self-esteem and insecurity that is making them stoop so low. I have also come across men who have asked them to think again.)”

I totally agree with the above ..

5. I also beleive that  If a woman is dressed a certain way, it does NOT mean that she’s looking for sex!.. But then I would not want a female who I know walking on the road half naked,  as a prostitue would walk.. Again YES I know how they dress and walk.  I know many out there probably wriggling there fingers to put in a comment How do i know, or how can i see.. Well my answer is Look at the one you care for and love , thats how they NOT DRESS.. hope you got a reply

I was brought up by parents who taught me how to treat a woman, I was always told that I should watch how i behave outside since I have sisters and I would not like them teased or hassled. DO you teach your son-husband-father this … Did you protest when a male in your family said something derogatory about a female in front of you.

Do have a think and let me know….