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The rewind button on the different music apps makes one think if we can have a rewind button in life too.. They do say that Hindsight is a boon, But sometimes the same hindsight also shows us what a prick we have been .. the concept of WHAT IF .. comes into action.

What if 2013 did not come, or what if the decision one took was a different one, BUT then everyone also says Destiny ..What has to happen will happen no matter what we do. So the decisions made would have been made irrespective of what the hindsight tells us now.

Very confusing, recently I was so fed up of everything that was going on around me that I thought of rewinding back the clock , So I went to a couple of places for 2 days only to try to relive the time that has gone back. It was not the same but I did have a smile for a few hours on my face.

Sometimes we make dreadful and very very wrong decisions, the worst thing is those decision can’t be taken back and we have to live our entire life with them, the clocks cant to rewound , whats done is done, friends turn to foes, people we love turn to people who hate us.   I do wish that there is a way in this world where we can make things right after they have been completely destroyed by us only.

If someone else has destroyed those it probably is easy to forget or at least live with the hate we have for them, but what if the one who has destroyed it is you , yourself. What do you do..  I know many people say that they don’t remember or have moved on, But I for one have not been able to forgive myself. I know I have done wrong VERY WRONG, how do we make it right.   If we had the opportunity to tap that Rewind button then I would have surly done it by now.

So I spent a couple of days last week roaming on the streets, trying to freshen up the memory of the not so distant past, it is still as if it was yesterday, God what a fool I would make of myself getting excited over Eating those masala Corn, one gets in cinema halls, or eating the lovely chicken in a restaurant, Riding a auto-rickshaw, looking at a Enfield bike and shouting ohhh “BULLET”…

I have always maintained that if I was to live my life all over again , I would do the same , make the same mistakes because I am what I am — (Good-Bad-Ugly) because of those mistakes or decisions… But as with everything else Exceptions are always there, I too have one which I would not want to repeat, this will probably haunt me for the rest of my life but the damage has been done , I dont see any way how it can be rectified.

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The rewind button …………

 

 

PS:- My apologies for not answering to the comments on previous post , and also not visiting all the lovely blogs. I will do that Soon.

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Hello Everyone first of all thank you all for the well wishes and the emails , messages etc etc .

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I have a small little proposal here , thinking of working for myself ,starting a small little venture So Am looking for some talented young people who are good in Programming.  We have a few clients here who want a system written, Which I have already started on.

So if anyone can refer Hard working-Capable- Loyal people who know  C#, Asp.net , Sql Server or even if they have skills in PHP using open source , etc etc Then I am looking to hire a couple of people who can work remotely in India and who can be trusted to work without a lot of supervision, because I don’t have time to supervise them at moment neither the funds to Hire a Supervisor.

Please do send your contact details etc. so we can set up some Skype meetings and take it forward.  I am planning to come to india shortly for the same purpose as already have a few people lined up.

The reason I am asking openly is because Since I am starting new I can’t afford to be duped hence all you lovely people refer me some genuine people.  I have heard a lot of stories how things have gone wrong for some who have earlier tried to set up something like this back home.

I will spec the project out and also can send over the work that I have done so far, I just did not get enough time with full-time work and my part-time stuff. But this project is very important and I am in process of signing on about a dozen clients, hence the need to send work offshore so it is completed on time.

A good opportunity for new graduates to try their skills.

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Hello everyone.  I am not even going to attempt talking about where I have been and whats happened to the A to Z challenge. I am sure you guys are sick and tired of listening to my excuses by now … BUT me being me I will still Rant and Rave 🙂 he he he he

The last Two months have been so chaotic nothing has gone right for me, it seems God has some sort of plan for me or rather No plan for me. This circle of good years – bad years doesn’t seem to break.

Its been such a turmoil , such an extreme that I have gone from getting to stand on a Podium TO a few evenings where I thought whats the best way to kill Myself:), just could not find enough courage to go through with it, basically I am a coward 🙂 ..

Living in UK away from all the friends and family suddenly becomes such a pain, seems to be the worst decision made at such moments of life.

Again there have been some lovely human beings especially from the Blogworld who have been contacting and asking.. So thank you.. YOU LOVELY Human beings, god bless you all.

Here in UK we live in a funny world of human rights which seem to be very very partial towards those who actually are the worst enemies of human rights, Sadly I can’t go into the details of things that have happened.

As of Today I am no more working in the job I was ,for which I worked so hard, I have resigned from my job, I was hoping for some miracle but alas I am not lucky to have miracles. Right or Wrong I don’t know but I just got fed up of the way things were being treated. I was not going to say SORRY for something which I did with my heart and in Full faith that I was doing the right thing.

I am standing by myself but then isn’t that how life has become when things come to the crunch you find yourself standing by yourself, suddenly all those who use to be your best mates at some stage disappear.   The ones who spoke so lovingly about you are nowhere to be seen. I guess such are the way of the world. 🙂

On other hand today I also have a smile on my face and I feel relieved because at least in-spite of all that pressure I stood by my decision NOW we will see what others will do. PHEWWWWWWWwwwwwwwwww , let the funny games begin.  I am not going to say that it was the Right or Wrong decision because I did not want to be in a situation where I would be made to do something that I would not want to do.

Maybe I am Stubborn

Maybe I am Wrong

Maybe I am all just talk  and nothing else

I don’t know, it hurts to know that something that you did with so much passion for so long, even some of the people who loved me hated me for giving so much importance to this job, and something that you loved would come to an end like this..  Five years and then I am able to talk about the episodes that have happened and maybe then when everything is in the open I will get to know if all this was worth it or Not.

One of my old old Blog friends said this to me some time back .. HOW APT… ” when life pulls you,wrenches you, the same life hugs you and kisses you and love you back.. we just need to know to be strong and be positive about life. ” by Aswathy here.

Hey anyone willing to give me a JOB 🙂

SO this is what has been going around in my part of the world , How are you all doing.. and what are you all up to. 

 

Ps. Please I am sorry I have not replied to the comments in previous posts. I will get to them very soon.  Thanks.

Here we are , the 11th of November. I am going to start this post with the following I read long time back..

” when life pulls you,wrenches you, the same life hugs you and kisses you and love you back.. we just need to know to be strong and be positive about life. ” by Aswathy here.

That is such a lovely thought ,  I know LIFE is such that you either love it or you hate it .. and those who love LIFE have a lovely life too and those who hate soon learn how to love life.

Today is a special day too as its Diwali so it seems the whole world is going to celebrate my birthday 🙂 and everyone knows how much i love fireworks, if I could I would light some fireworks all day long, since childhood i have been crazy about fireworks But sadly this year I am not celebrating Diwali due to a family mishap.

Since morning everyone has been sending messages -emails , whatsapp these days has become a necessity.

Before I get carried on let me first of all wish every reader and Visitor.. Wishing you-Your Family and EVERYONE Around you a very happy Diwali

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I always say God has been very Kind to me, I am sure he has a special place for me 🙂 Over the years I have had some dreams , actually a LOT of dreams some have come true , some have got lost and hopefully Some more will get fulfilled as time goes on. So today is My birthday too 🙂

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In college we had these dreams that as we grow old and start working, we will become independent , do this and that.. but it’s not that way.. as you grow responsibilities grow, priorities change , looking at the world differs, things which mattered than .. Don’t matter NOW. All those dreams we had, all friends will take up a job in same company and have fun but it was not to be. I am an average person. Everyone or well most people are confident in themselves to a level, but there is always self-doubt, should I do this or that , will I be successful, am I doing the right thing. I have my doubts at times. I also long for what everyone longs for Love, caress, appreciation, (you guys reading this write a comment HOW GOOD IT IS.. yes go on please please please .. he he he he )

In all these years I have done a lot of wild things, a few wishes have come true like

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Wanted to fly….. did it ( gliding and then the Flying

Wanted to be a good at sports – I been in nationals for hockey

Wanted to visit places — work in progress, been to Spain-America-Canada-Australia- Brussels- Dubai-Singapore- France-etc etc.

Wanted to do a few of the dangerous sport activities Bungee jumping, parachuting, skydiving, Have done the Sky dive and NOW have given up the idea of bungee jumping , don’t like the idea for some reason.

Wanted to do white water Rafting and other silly things , have managed to do them all now 🙂

I want to go to Disneyland in Florida.. Oh yes I do .. its nothing of being childish .. every person has a child hidden in them.. I do want to go and do it some day …

I also Want to do something like this 🙂  I want to Do this stunt myself .. I told my friend and they said “ARE YOU MAD“… But what fun it would be, and in case it goes wrong then No chance of surviving so all the better, because I would not want to be in an accident and live a broken life.

The one thing I am dyeing to do is go on a Safari in Africa , in a Hot air balloon, Imagine the drift flying you and then in the middle of it Pffft Pfffft Pfffft oooops the engine or whatever  it is stops … and you are slowing going down.. down .. you look down .. GUESS what .. A PRIDE is watching with those sweet innocent eyes , tongues hanging out , occasionally slurping with the thought of fresh MAN MEAT .. YUMMY .. .

Another thing I want to do is drive all the way to India, Yes , drive it all the way to India..at some stages actually had serious talks with a group of maniacs like me to do it , we just did not have that much money to buy the cars , else we just might have done it .. Just imagine .. wow.. I am getting an adrenalin rush just thinking about it… A road trip exploring various places around the world, Turkey, Istanbul,  Greece, Italy,Iran, Austria, Pakistan.. imagine the amazing places. I know a lot of people have done it so why not do it myself. ONE DAY GOD WILLING I TOO WILL.

More maybe next time .. What about you people out there anything ….

Writing everyday of the month is becoming very very difficult, missed yesterday did not want to do it today too, so the easiest thing was to take up the Tag that Visha started, Although I was not tagged, I am still taking it up, Sorry Visha for that. She herself has done the tag here

So here we go, I love sports hence the topic of the Tag also sounds very sporting “Play Volleyball”

Rules of the tag:

Answer all the questions. No ‘pass’ or ‘no idea’ type of answers.
No cursing me if you found the tag to be difficult while attempting.

Here is the tag –

1. List all the ingredients which went into making the most interesting dish you ate today.

Well it is bright and early in the morning, being a Monday(this post was supposed to go yesterday) , rushing to work and as usual had a late night, hence am running a bit late so this one is very easy for me to answer, especially since I am very retarded in the field of cooking 🙂

SO here we go, this is what I have had and its easy to make .. Take a bowl, Pour the contents of the pouch in it, Add some Milk .. Put it in the microwave and after 2 minutes it’s all done .. EASY PEASY 🙂

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2. What is the current wallpaper of your laptop/phone/tablet?

My laptop has the picture of my home in our village.. , Phone has the picture of a sea beach .. nothing fancy

3. How do you wear your hair when at home?

I have got the shortest possible haircut done just a couple of days , so nothing to WEAR them as .. again easy peasy.. keep life simple 🙂

4. When you visit any restaurant, what is the first thing you search for, in the menu?

The ice-cream or dessert they serve 🙂 …

5. What is the advertisement from your childhood that you recall even today.

Glucose D biscuits… especially the GABBAR KI ASLI PASAND… here drool at the following pic and remember those good old days
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6.Have you implemented a beauty tip/hack which you were told to, and been mortified by the results?

No, I doubt if they will work on me .. and believe me I will be myself MORTIFIED if they work , hence i keep away don’t want to be mortified.. 🙂 and also don’t want to MORITFY any of you who come and visit this blog, I am positive you will all stop visiting.

7. At your home, where do the newspapers find themselves to be the most useful?

In a pile , beside the outside door, end of the month they go in the recycling bin ..

8. During a visit to any mall, what do you find yourself searching first?

Where is the nearest Eating place.. 🙂

9. This tag is over now. Explain your state of mind.

MORITFIED 🙂 that i managed to complete the tag and have a post for today yipeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee err on second thoughts HAPPY..

So thank you so much Visha.

R.I.P – Finnders

Posted: February 8, 2013 in Life
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Early morning I got the news Last night (uk time) A young officer breathed his last. They say god takes away the good people faster and earlier as he needs Good people with him  and Bad men like me and many others are left here on earth.  

He had gone for a night out with friends, In the early morning of Monday , he was returning home when he got embroiled in a row, he then got punched and was left unconscious in the road.

What sort of people have we become that a fellow human being lost his life over some STUPID argument.. how can this be justified a life snapped in the bud.. What reason can be there to end up someone’s life, to kill a fellow human being.

Rest in peace my friend Finnders (as he was lovingly called), you will be missed always .

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I  have been living in a city and studied in a city for majority of the times but my heart has always been from where we came.  My grand-father had actually run away from his house when only 16 and joined the indian army as a sepoy, he with his hard work had risen to the ranks of an officer by the time he retired, did all his education along, After he left army he joined the public services and shifted to chandigarh. Since my childhood I have been very very close to my grand-dad. He would never say no to me ever for anything.

We use to talk to each other a lot , and he would tell me that in all his struggle to cater for his kids and build a home he had sold off his share of land back home in punjab, but he had always wanted to have something , I use to tease him that he is in such a strong position , all the ministers etc use to come to our house for some work of the other , I would say all he needs is to ask any of these ministers to make sure that he gets this and that .. for whatever work he was doing for them. But I would get a rebuke he would get so angry with me. Telling me that all his life he has lived on his salary , all that he has made is from his own sweat and hard work, and in our great nation it is very difficult to make money till you sell your morality.

I am not saying that one can’t make or have a rich life without being corrupt , there are many who have done wonders, maybe my grand-dad never got that opportunity , although he did make little property in chandigarh as the prices then were peanuts and the Govt. was actually giving away land for peanuts just to make sure chandigarh as a city developed. Look at it now it is so hard to find a vacant place and everything is in Crores now .

My father too worked hard to make sure we had everything we wanted as we were growing up

Well I came to uk and I started building my life,  always had this in the back of my mind to try to go back to the place where my forefathers had lived, Had been working on this idea for a long long time.. Finally today another dream came true, that of owning a house in the same place where my grand-father had sold his share and moved out , Today 11th december was a good day , We are owners of a 3 bedroom house , the registry and everything went through fine, and what a relief it was.

When I got a call from my Mama Ji (my mom’s brother)  to tell me that the paperwork has gone through fine. It was a good feeling, so now all that remains is me booking my tickets and go there and actually be in the place and make it into a home.

They say we come to know about who the true friends are in time of need, I had to get together a lot of money in a very short time but thankfully we are blessed by some very good friends who came out and have helped me in the best way they could, And some helped without even me asking they knew  there will be need of money , and I did not want to take any loans etc for the reason, they all contributed and we had the full sum, that had to be paid.

December seems to have been a good month for me , 400th post and today this news , It seems god is happy with me.  I know I have some land and house etc , but they are like what my father bought and earned , so this is the first one that I own and it is a good feeling to own something of your own.

I know every one of you has been wishing me well and blessed me with the best of the wishes always, so please be like that always and thank you for the wishes they seem to be working for me.  I will post some pictures and all soon once I lay my hands on them myself. Actually to be truthful I have not even seen this house, my relatives back home had gone to see this and I talked to my Mama ji who said it was an ideal place and in a good location , so we went for it …

He made a remark that you have come back home, The place where the “MANN’S ” had settled earlier after independence,  Then they all moved out to greener pastures and I was going to go back to the place .. It was indeed a homecoming or will be once I land there.

Please everyone do keep me in your wishes and prayers.

Another thing has been ticked in the TO DO List

2012 has been so great.