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Here we are , the 11th of November. I am going to start this post with the following I read long time back..

” when life pulls you,wrenches you, the same life hugs you and kisses you and love you back.. we just need to know to be strong and be positive about life. ” by Aswathy here.

That is such a lovely thought ,  I know LIFE is such that you either love it or you hate it .. and those who love LIFE have a lovely life too and those who hate soon learn how to love life.

Today is a special day too as its Diwali so it seems the whole world is going to celebrate my birthday 🙂 and everyone knows how much i love fireworks, if I could I would light some fireworks all day long, since childhood i have been crazy about fireworks But sadly this year I am not celebrating Diwali due to a family mishap.

Since morning everyone has been sending messages -emails , whatsapp these days has become a necessity.

Before I get carried on let me first of all wish every reader and Visitor.. Wishing you-Your Family and EVERYONE Around you a very happy Diwali

I always say God has been very Kind to me, I am sure he has a special place for me 🙂 Over the years I have had some dreams , actually a LOT of dreams some have come true , some have got lost and hopefully Some more will get fulfilled as time goes on. So today is My birthday too 🙂

In college we had these dreams that as we grow old and start working, we will become independent , do this and that.. but it’s not that way.. as you grow responsibilities grow, priorities change , looking at the world differs, things which mattered than .. Don’t matter NOW. All those dreams we had, all friends will take up a job in same company and have fun but it was not to be. I am an average person. Everyone or well most people are confident in themselves to a level, but there is always self-doubt, should I do this or that , will I be successful, am I doing the right thing. I have my doubts at times. I also long for what everyone longs for Love, caress, appreciation, (you guys reading this write a comment HOW GOOD IT IS.. yes go on please please please .. he he he he )

In all these years I have done a lot of wild things, a few wishes have come true like

Wanted to fly….. did it ( gliding and then the Flying

Wanted to be a good at sports – I been in nationals for hockey

Wanted to visit places — work in progress, been to Spain-America-Canada-Australia- Brussels- Dubai-Singapore- France-etc etc.

Wanted to do a few of the dangerous sport activities Bungee jumping, parachuting, skydiving, Have done the Sky dive and NOW have given up the idea of bungee jumping , don’t like the idea for some reason.

Wanted to do white water Rafting and other silly things , have managed to do them all now 🙂

I want to go to Disneyland in Florida.. Oh yes I do .. its nothing of being childish .. every person has a child hidden in them.. I do want to go and do it some day …

I also Want to do something like this 🙂  I want to Do this stunt myself .. I told my friend and they said “ARE YOU MAD“… But what fun it would be, and in case it goes wrong then No chance of surviving so all the better, because I would not want to be in an accident and live a broken life.

The one thing I am dyeing to do is go on a Safari in Africa , in a Hot air balloon, Imagine the drift flying you and then in the middle of it Pffft Pfffft Pfffft oooops the engine or whatever  it is stops … and you are slowing going down.. down .. you look down .. GUESS what .. A PRIDE is watching with those sweet innocent eyes , tongues hanging out , occasionally slurping with the thought of fresh MAN MEAT .. YUMMY .. .

Another thing I want to do is drive all the way to India, Yes , drive it all the way to India..at some stages actually had serious talks with a group of maniacs like me to do it , we just did not have that much money to buy the cars , else we just might have done it .. Just imagine .. wow.. I am getting an adrenalin rush just thinking about it… A road trip exploring various places around the world, Turkey, Istanbul,  Greece, Italy,Iran, Austria, Pakistan.. imagine the amazing places. I know a lot of people have done it so why not do it myself. ONE DAY GOD WILLING I TOO WILL.

More maybe next time .. What about you people out there anything ….

Main Haale Nahin Marda

Tutde rishte zakham bahut doonge de jaande
Par Zakhman di peed nu sehna aa hi Jaanda

                          Breaking of relation give deep bruises
                          But one learns how to deal with them

Tere Dhokiyaan te Jhoote waadiyan ne kita hai adhmoya
Tute te ujade dil  de pathar lagde ne pyare hun

                          Your cheating and false promises have left me half dead
                           But broken and ruined stones in my heart I like now

Sochan which hain mangdi saadi maut da farmaan
Ik gal da hai yakeen Tere wangu Rab nahin karda dhokha
Mann ne haale nahin marna

                          You probably wish for me dead
                          I do KNOW for sure that God is not going to betray me
                          Mann (me) is not gonna die so soon

Duavan haan Teri lai mangda..
Rab kare dil tere diyan pooriyaan hon har muradaan

                          I wish for your happiness 
                          May god give you and grant every of your wish

Door kadi jad akali tun hain baithen
Chees tere dil which waar waar eho Uthe
Das ni rakaane tun idan kyun kita..

                        
                          Far away when you are alone sitting
                          let there be this pain in your heart which keeps saying to you
                          Why oh Why did you do this

I really had fun. Goodbye and thank you. – Time to move on?

“Goodbye, everybody!” – Anxious to see the journey ahead?

“Don’t worry, it’s not loaded”

“They tried to get me – I got them first!” – Going to die anyway?

“I am eager to see what lies beyond the curtain of death,” “Bye-bye selfish world.”

These were a few of the last emails written by a few who were about to give up there life.. for some reason ..

Though we don’t know what prompts this behaviour, most people commit suicide due to “usual” reasons. That would range from matrimonial discord to failure in exams on one hand to unrequited love or monetary distress on the other. Monetary distress could be due to many reasons: losses in business or stock market, unemployment, debts, etc. Harassment for dowry, old-age problems and suffering from chronic diseases also account for many suicides.

Deranged people commit suicide.

A Sane person will ponder over the matter and try to solve the problem. But what is sanity..

Insane person will get carried away by emotions or compulsions at hand. I think a very strong will is required to commit suicide. Who wishes to end such a beautiful life without reason. The cases of frustration in love, extreme poverty, chronic disease, threat to life otherwise, may be some of the causes that drive a person to this sordid act.

I have spoken to many friends and found that no one has pucca solutions for defeated hearts, persons with weak will-power. Counselling also helps to some extent. Any way I will say that to commit suicide is a foolish act.

One thing I will say everyone in this world today or tomorrow everyone has a stressful situation but the main difference between the two people (one who commits suicide and one who does not) is that one who commits suicide is alone. He is not even able to share his pain with a single human being in this earth.

Human being is a social animal whenever he gets a feeling he is alone because he is not able to express himself to anyone he commits suicide. Till we have a feeling of responsibilities, bothering for others one does not commit suicide. The moment human being knows there is no one to bother after me, or there is no responsibilities human being attempts suicide.