J – is for JUNE

Posted: June 10, 2016 in Blogging, Experiences, Life, People, UK
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Hello everyone.  I am not even going to attempt talking about where I have been and whats happened to the A to Z challenge. I am sure you guys are sick and tired of listening to my excuses by now … BUT me being me I will still Rant and Rave 🙂 he he he he

The last Two months have been so chaotic nothing has gone right for me, it seems God has some sort of plan for me or rather No plan for me. This circle of good years – bad years doesn’t seem to break.

Its been such a turmoil , such an extreme that I have gone from getting to stand on a Podium TO a few evenings where I thought whats the best way to kill Myself:), just could not find enough courage to go through with it, basically I am a coward 🙂 ..

Living in UK away from all the friends and family suddenly becomes such a pain, seems to be the worst decision made at such moments of life.

Again there have been some lovely human beings especially from the Blogworld who have been contacting and asking.. So thank you.. YOU LOVELY Human beings, god bless you all.

Here in UK we live in a funny world of human rights which seem to be very very partial towards those who actually are the worst enemies of human rights, Sadly I can’t go into the details of things that have happened.

As of Today I am no more working in the job I was ,for which I worked so hard, I have resigned from my job, I was hoping for some miracle but alas I am not lucky to have miracles. Right or Wrong I don’t know but I just got fed up of the way things were being treated. I was not going to say SORRY for something which I did with my heart and in Full faith that I was doing the right thing.

I am standing by myself but then isn’t that how life has become when things come to the crunch you find yourself standing by yourself, suddenly all those who use to be your best mates at some stage disappear.   The ones who spoke so lovingly about you are nowhere to be seen. I guess such are the way of the world. 🙂

On other hand today I also have a smile on my face and I feel relieved because at least in-spite of all that pressure I stood by my decision NOW we will see what others will do. PHEWWWWWWWwwwwwwwwww , let the funny games begin.  I am not going to say that it was the Right or Wrong decision because I did not want to be in a situation where I would be made to do something that I would not want to do.

Maybe I am Stubborn

Maybe I am Wrong

Maybe I am all just talk  and nothing else

I don’t know, it hurts to know that something that you did with so much passion for so long, even some of the people who loved me hated me for giving so much importance to this job, and something that you loved would come to an end like this..  Five years and then I am able to talk about the episodes that have happened and maybe then when everything is in the open I will get to know if all this was worth it or Not.

One of my old old Blog friends said this to me some time back .. HOW APT… ” when life pulls you,wrenches you, the same life hugs you and kisses you and love you back.. we just need to know to be strong and be positive about life. ” by Aswathy here.

Hey anyone willing to give me a JOB 🙂

SO this is what has been going around in my part of the world , How are you all doing.. and what are you all up to. 

 

Ps. Please I am sorry I have not replied to the comments in previous posts. I will get to them very soon.  Thanks.

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Comments
  1. pins & ashes says:

    missed you! now let me go read the post.. 🙂

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  2. Zephyr says:

    That is tough, Bikram! But as always you will come out right on top of everything. When you have done the right thing and are standing by your actions, there is no way things won’t work out. Just hang in there!

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  3. Alok Singhal says:

    All will sort-out soon, buddy…just take a breather for now/

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  4. Oh no 😦
    Can’t do much but pray that shit gets back together. Don’t lose hope. And don’t kill yourself, you can’t eat yummy pani puri after death. I think. I am sure. Princess commands you to stay alive!

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    • Bikramjit says:

      YES MAM… WILL DO for sure … and thank you for the wishes … its ok it will get back together when it does till then i am gonna Chilllaxxx 🙂 and oh yes I forgot that how will i eat paany poori Well thought MAM 🙂 ok the idea of killing myself cancellledddddddddddddd 🙂 he he he he he he

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  5. Parul Thakur says:

    If you are standing right, you are doing the right thing. Don’t you doubt anything. I hope things get sorted soon. Hugs and best wishes. Missed you around.

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    • Bikramjit says:

      standing right is what i think.. rest time will tell, cruel politics and all BUt I am feeling good after it 🙂 and thank you so much for the wishes , I missed blogging tooo but just did not get much time there was so much going on ..

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  6. SG says:

    You were asked to do something but you will not do based on principle. Hang in there buddy. You will be the ultimate winner. My prayers for a new good satisfying job for you.

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  7. renu says:

    I always believe in..when you leave a job, you always get a better one..just wait..

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  8. onkar kedia says:

    I think you did the right thing by sticking to your convictions.

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  9. Rinks says:

    You have done the best thing….to have stood by yourself. Kick ass job Bikram…!! I would have done the same too!! Now relax and take sometime for youself as you have no obligations, no deadlines. Just have breakfast at lunch and lunches at suppertime. Chill out at parks and pubs equally with nothing to run back to …this time is very rare, so just cash on it. Let yourself some time too, too much time has been given to everyone else and everything else!! Jobs and people will come and go….Enjoy the time which has stopped for you!

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    • Bikramjit says:

      THank you Thank you … I had to was getting too stressed.. so to hell with it all 🙂
      and YES taking my time .. plan to sleep for at least a WEEEK 🙂 he he he he he THank you so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

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  10. I think it is good you are not losing yourself or you won’t be at least

    Whatever it is that is bothering you – remember we need to believe in hope for tomorrow, be resilient about today and revel in the good memories of yesterday

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  11. sm says:

    J for Judge
    J for Justice
    sorry to know about job, keep trying you will be find another one

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  12. Wishing you get what you are looking for and so true.

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  13. When you are sticking to your principles, a good one, people will definitely recognize it one day and you might get a better job than the one you had. Take care, Bikram. Next should be a happy happy post!

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    • Bikramjit says:

      🙂 THank you so much.. This post was not that gloomy I did puta couple of smiley’s he he he .. Ok done next post will not be a sorrow one. although I am not sad at all .. it is what it is 🙂

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  14. Hello there! Good to see you back. Hang in there! Maybe it was time to take a much needed break (that you mentioned on my blog). Take care! and definitely things will fall in place. Praying that you will be in a much better frame of mind very soon!

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  15. You’ll bounce back you silly sausage! You have too much good energy not to. Keep writing, keep reaching out to people and something will turn up. In between you have your Blog Fam to keep you boosted if not your immediate fam. Things only become the worse decision if we fail to see the opportunities masked as problems in our lives and fail to capitalize on them.
    Any thoughts about what you want to do now with your new life?

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    • Bikramjit says:

      🙂 God is very kind to me .. you are right when you say things become worst decisions if we fail to see the new oppurtunities it brings .

      what i would like to do ooooh now that is a big big listtttttt 🙂 to start with i would love to win a lottery and live a posh life he he he he 🙂

      Thank you so much SO MUCHhhhhhhhhhhhhhh for the thoughts .. thank you 🙂

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  16. anisnest says:

    Hey Bikram I have been away from blogging too.. Hugs to you and may you be blessed with all the strength to sail through this difficult time.. Take care!!

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  17. You will get man and sending positive vibes. Ultimately, life surprises us when we least expect them.Keep the faith and get going mate:)

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  18. Prajakta says:

    I am sure you had your reasons here – Hopefully everything will get back on track soon!

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  19. Novroz says:

    I really understand your situation. I once in a spot like you too, I gave so much for the job but it didn’t really work…so I quit and now I am in a better job.

    I hope you will also find a better job soon 🙂

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    • surindernath says:

      As Guru Sahib said, “you can defeat me but you can not make me accept defeat” !! Not accepting defeat is our Final and Ultimate Freedom !!

      I was defeated many times. There were times when I started thinking that I did not know how to play this game called life. I lost… lost…lost… lost… lost…. but stood there and one day the weather changed. I did not ( because could not ) change it. I simply stood there !! Finally I learnt ;

      The only permanent thing in this world is the change. Even the bad time…changes. It goes as it comes and it, sooner or later, comes to every one !!

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      • Bikramjit says:

        Haanji sir truly said.. I am not bothered about what happened or how it happened because given the chance if it happens again I will do exactly the same thing again 🙂 I am fine and God is great. the games that are to be played well some day I shall learn tooo .. . Weather is changing its raining 🙂 nice and cool weather here .. not very hot perfect for a bottle of beer 🙂 he he he he

        Thank you sir for such lovely words.. Thank you so much

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    • Bikramjit says:

      As they say another door opens when one closes 🙂 Thank you so much

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  20. Oh, what more can I say except – ‘This too, shall pass.’ (Ring of wisdom) My comment comes 16 days after ur post, so I’m hoping much has altered for the better by now.
    If prayers & wishes help, here are some from me. 🙂

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    • Bikramjit says:

      Thank you thank you so much, I am sure it will pass.. I beleive that once you have hit rock bottom there is only one way to go and that is UP.. so lets see ..

      Things are ok mam, God is very kind to me and always has been.. and Thank you so much for the prayers .. I need them all of themmmmmmmmmm 🙂 thank you so much

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      • Please don’t call me Mam.
        Yes, I believe in miracles, b’cos they have happened to me.

        Btw, I hope UP doesn’t stand for Uttar Pradesh, b’cos that would be going downhill 🙂

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        • Bikramjit says:

          ha ha ha No UP does not stand for that .. It definitely stands for up up up up .. 🙂 he he he he

          miracles do happen for sure .. and as I said god is great so my miracle is coming tooooooooo 🙂

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  21. B k chowla says:

    I can’t complain.
    I have also been away for sometime.
    Am back and will star replying to all.

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  22. Jzt says:

    Hey Dear…All is well that ends well and if it is not well then it is not the end…this, I didn’t say, but shahrukh khan did..hehe!!! But frankly, I can clearly connect with what u might have gone thru…As I had gone thru this hell…the vicious cycle of the ups and downs…unfortunately, for some its more of downs and then they don’t even recognise when the ups come in…Don’t worry, as long as u know, u did only right…god wud be there with u…he have better plans…and between, also read ur next post…All the best in ur new venture…

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    • Bikramjit says:

      Hellooooooooooooooooo 🙂 totally agree with that if it is not well then its not the end yet .. so very true.

      Thank you so much for the wishesss I need them allll 🙂

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  23. Bindu says:

    I can guess and feel what you are (were) going through. Just wait for the good days!

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  24. gc1963 says:

    Leaving something which you are passionate about also needs lot of courage. Hope everything works out to be okay for you.

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  25. mywords331 says:

    Nice alphabetic concept to carry on..

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  26. Seema says:

    You stood by for what you said…and thats all what matters at the end…A contentful job I wish for you!!! Best wishes..

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  27. Rachna says:

    This was last year’s post. I hope your June and July this year passed off better.

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