I have been wondering for a few days now what to say or HOW to express gratitude to those who have influenced me and my life, what words do I use that will do justice to the role they have had, Also how to chose the 3.
I have had a weird life so far, Life as we know has its ups and down, its these ups-downs that make life what it is LIFE and its these Ups and downs that actually make a personΒ A good or a bad person. In all these situations there are people who stand by you or Stood by you, by the grace of God I am one of the luckiest person’s alive , I have had so many good human beings around me who have always helped me or stood by me through all the upheavals , So this is for all of them.
My GrandFather who always believed me whatever I said , even when I was giving him an eyewash to part with 10,000 Rs. so I could join a Computer institute just because girls were there, and a couple of my friends had joined. I cant forget ever how much you pampered me , if i got in trouble (which was often) all you would ask is Have I done something wrong, when I said “NO”, You believed me without a doubt and Stood by me always.
My parentsΒ Β who again had to go through all the problems because of all the troubles I got myself into, the endless evenings they spent worrying if I will live after some incidents. I do repent doing what I did and maybe if you had not stood by me and shown me the right way I would not beΒ what I am today.
I know I am not the best human being, I have my faults a lot of them. I have hurt so many people over the time, There are those who probably wish me dead and pray the worst for me, but then that I also believe is what makes us human, We are good for some – bad for others.
I wish I could undo what I did but sadly that is not possible, Life is not just weird, its FUNNY also because we end up hurting those who are dear to us , those whom we love the most, How can we be such idiots that we end up hurting them the most.
My friends I am most thankful to , and they deserve a big big gratitude for being with me always, in-spite of knowing what a bad human I am , still being there always, I want to name each one of you but its a LONG Longggggggggg list THANK YOU.
I know I have always said that I will be a friend and yet I have failed you many a times , to you all I also want to say SORRY for being a jerk like that.
I don’t want to mention a name BUT here I want to say to that one person whom I have hurt a LOT, I do wish I had not done what I did. You are the one who gave me unconditional love always and I let you down. I don’t even know how to express my gratitude to you for everything. Maybe someday I will have the courage to say sorry to you in person, maybe.. Maybe just maybe , I love you and will always do till the end of my life, God bless you and may you get all your hearts desires fulfilled.
The following lines Sum up everything in my life ..
Β Koi kami meri which hovegi
kaiyan ton jhootha pai gaya main oh mere naal de age langh gaye Koi kami meri which hovegi |
Something Lacks in ME FOR SURE
Proven a Liar among others Many have surpassed me Something Lacks in ME FOR SURE |
Aww…that was really sweet post !! I’m sure you are a very good human being Bikram….its just the circumstances which make you take wrong decisions. Hugs from me π
LikeLike
Thank you so much mam for thinking that way.
Thank you thank youuuuuuuuu
LikeLike
Me too….dont call me Maam,Im Rinku. And Bikram you know even I had been crappy and nasty to some people in life but thats coz I was forced to be in that situation. And some friends are incredible. You know a highschool classmate of mine let me stay with him until I got myself a house.I can take a gunshot for him , if i have to, ever!! Stay blessed and pass over the favors (you got) to people in need….that’s my Mantra Keep smiling, keep writing dost π
LikeLike
π ok will Rinku MAM do he he he he he π
and yes your mantra is excellent .. pass on works a lot tooooo
LikeLike
I’m so glad to read this… You have a beautiful soul dear!! I agree with Rinks… Koi bhi insaan bura na hota… waqt aur halaat usko bura kaam karne pe majboor karta hai…
Aur mujhe lagta hai ki jab aapko ye ahsaas ho gaya hai ki aapse kuch galtiyan hui hain tho bas jo hua usse bhul jao aur aagay ek nayi shuruvat karo… Aapko apne galti ka ehsaas hona hai aapke acche hone ki nishani hai π
LikeLike
Thank you mam.. Wowo. . I do hope and pray now that this remains your view throughout. .:)
Yeah I know time makes one do or take some steps but then I also feel that one should never get into such a situation. . But then destiny plays a big part tooo. .
I am glad you think that way.
Bahut bahut shukriyaa. . My hindi is a bit rusty. ..
LikeLiked by 1 person
Oh! Please don’t call me MAM… Call me Nimmi π Don’t worry.. My views will be the same π
Things will change dear… Just keep up the good hope and trust me, writings help… π
Hindi tho jaisi bhi hai acchi hai π
LikeLike
π thank you thank you so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh π so will Nimmi MAM do π he he he he he
LikeLiked by 1 person
Hahaha… Very funny ;P
LikeLike
π π
LikeLiked by 1 person
Good that you had people who stood by you. I wish I also had some, but I didn’t need it anyway!
Destination Infinity
LikeLike
GOd is very kind to me … THank you so much D.I.
LikeLike
I don’t think you are a bad human, Bikramjit. This gratitude post shows your kindness and we all falter in life.
LikeLike
THank you so much Vishal ..
LikeLike
Aww…such a sweet post..Why do you say you are a bad human? We all do mistakes and we learn from them. Not repeating them is the key…do I have to tell you that? π I also did tons of crazy things. If I was given a 2nd chance, may be I wouldn’t have done half of them now. But you know, jo ho gaya so ho gaya. Your post made me think how many times my mom must have worries about me. π
LikeLike
Hellooooooooooo DI.. how are you doing.. good to see you and you are biased towards me , you know me thats why you say that HA HA HA HAHA π thank you thank you … and No you dont have to tell me that I am consciously trying my best to now repeat the mistakes at all … (make new mistakes he he he he ) π
LikeLike
What an honest and lovely post! Bikram – I know you from the virtual world for over 2 years and you are a fantastic human being. We all have done things that we aren’t proud of but that doesn’t prove that we are not good. This gratitude shows how much your loved ones matter to you and that’s so important.
LikeLike
ah ha god bless you .. Thank you so much for saying that and I am glad you think that way of me .. thank you thank you …
LikeLiked by 1 person
It takes courage to be so honest. Hats off! Admitting to flaws is the first step to overcoming them. Just see how much luckier you are than the ones who are gleefully oblivious to their faults.
LikeLike
Thank you so much. π
LikeLiked by 1 person
Your honesty and sensitivity always amazes me Bikram, truthfulness and gratitude will make up for whatever you think you lack.
LikeLike
Thank you so much. I hope so tooo that it makes up .. trying to and hoping toooo
LikeLike
Gratitude is the easiest way to find peace and happiness within. Yet it is not easy to remember to stay in gratitude all the time. It is a touching, heartfelt post, Bikram. Appreciate your sincerity and honesty.
LikeLike
you are right we do forget sometimes … Thank you so much mam.. Glad you think that way …
LikeLiked by 1 person
Everybody has got flaws and plus points, Bikram! Sometimes mistakes happen and you are remembering people who stood by you and helped you….you are a good/normal human being. You have got so many good friends. Think positive and be happy always!
LikeLike
I do hope so sandhya bhen that it is how you say it is .. Thank you so much.
LikeLike
Loved reading it,its nice to look back at our lives and be grateful for those who loved us and suppoted us
LikeLike
very true .. we are what we are because of all the people we meet .. good or bad is part of all that ..
LikeLike
You have a wonderful family.
LikeLike
God has been kind to me .. Thank you SG
LikeLike
what a humble post. may you have more ups than down in your life. we all go through our rough times, and often times when we are in the lowest of low, we forget the good times.
It’s always good to be reminded of this. that bad times don’t last.
and to that last person, whom you have loved and hurt – may you find the courage to do the right thing – whatever the right thing is π
sometimes you don’t have to say it aloud. having gratitude and humility in your heart can also be enough.
LikeLike
Thank you so much for the wishes .. you are right we tend to keep hold of bad times more . and forget the good times..
LikeLike
touchy post
no one is perfect
LikeLike
Thank you SM
LikeLike
Tears of repentance wash away half the guilt. May you have a great life ahead!!
LikeLike
I hope so I HOPE so because I have cried a lot and still do when the guilt hits or when sad times happen.. Not as strong as I thought I was … Thank you so much for the wishes
LikeLiked by 1 person
Crying is not a sign of weakness
LikeLike
I hope so toooo … Thank you so much.
LikeLike
Straight from the heart, I see.
You deserve all the love and support you get. And we all make mistakes. Sometimes we do ‘bad’ things too but that doesn’t have to make us bad people. I hope you will be able to make peace with those things in the past that seem to be bothering you.
Have a great Sunday and a great week, Bik.
LikeLike
Thank you Thank you .. I am trying my best to make sure I dont make mistakes, or not to make BAD mistakes .. because we humans are flawed and mistakes we will commint i guess .. no one is perfect.
I hope so too mam, I do want to make peace and hopefully one day God will be more kind to me ..
Hope you are having a great sunday too.. Mine is not going good π watching the cricket match and india are loosing π¦ π¦
LikeLike
“something lacks in me for sure”…i can empathize with this line…..
LikeLike
Thank you so much..
LikeLike
This post reveals your true self. Bikram you inspire me. Kindest regards. π
LikeLike
WOWO.. Thank you so much Dilip sir.. I am glad that you think that way of me .. π
LikeLike
Oh yes of course my dear friend. Be well always π
LikeLike
THank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu π
LikeLike
Such a lovely, honest post Bikram! We are all humans, flawed in certain ways. Gratitude towards those who have stood by us, accepted us with our flaws, is always humbling.
LikeLike
Welcome here to this blog , thank you so much for visiting please do keep visiting.
Yes we are flawed some way or the other.. Thank you.
LikeLike
very nice post
LikeLike
Thank so much Onkar sir.
LikeLike
Nice piece..as always very nicely expressed… One grows through their mistakes, that’s what makes them the beautiful person they r today..
LikeLike
THank you so much .. glad you liked it. I do hope I am beautiful then because I have made tons of mistakes .. π
LikeLike
My Nana and Nani have be the ones who have always stood by me no matter what. From pampering me to taking my side even though it meant that they had to go against their own daughter. Like you, I will forever be grateful to them too.
LikeLike
Hey how are you doing, Long time no see π good to see you here.. and oh yes I have had that experience tooo with my grandparents .. π
LikeLike
That was a lovely piece, Bikram. Gratitude is healing.
LikeLike
Thank you so much , well I hope so .. I do hope so
LikeLike
You have chosen the right people to be grateful, Biks:)
We can never repay them & need many lifetimes. Gratitude is so important, yet not many people express it…
LikeLike
definitely .. we can never repay what our parents have done for us ..
LikeLike
No need to be sorry, buddy. We all are different…if we just recognize our mistakes, we are good humans.
LikeLike
Thank you so much.. How are you and how are your holidays are you back or still holidaying π
LikeLiked by 1 person
I am back, came last Sunday. Holidays were good, now have to get back into routine.
LikeLike
he he he I can imagine ..
LikeLiked by 1 person
It takes a lot of courage to be this honest, Bikram.
We all have done things that we shouldn’t have done, and hurt people whom we care about the most. That is the irony of life. Those things don’t make you a bad person, they just make you- human.
I hope you are able to make up with the friend you mentioned. Life is too short to hold grudges or harbor regrets. Good luck with everything. π
LikeLike
Thank you so much.. Glad you think that way .. I hope so tooo that I am able ot make up or do what needs doing .. I know life is short but sometimes the time is just not with you ..
LikeLike
None of us are perfect Bikram. All of us have our share of misdoings or hurting our loved ones. And that is what family is for, to stand by us – no matter what. Only difference between a good and bad person is that the good person realizes and shows the gratitude. Hugs to you.
LikeLike
GB.. helooooooooooo how are you.
Thank you so much GB.. THANK YOU
LikeLike
This is such a sweet sweet post! And you are a good friend Biks. I’m glad I know you thru this beautiful world of blogs π
LikeLike
Hey Pixie thank you for saying that .. I do hope I am a good friend π I am glad too that I know you π … you keep disappearing though.
LikeLiked by 1 person
Biks… This year has been crazy ! π
I think I am back and will be much more regular from now on
LikeLike
Excellent Pixie.. see you more often then π
LikeLiked by 1 person
I feel gratitude is the most underrated emotion of all.
LikeLike
yes that is true plus i think in the mad rush of life we usually forget to think about that toooo
LikeLike
It is courageous of you to mention it Bikram.. And it is all about being human.. we ourselves don’t know what we will be doing ahead.. Something done by others might look wrong to us, but when we do it, we have our own reasons.. that is how it is I guess..
But whats important is to identify it and be good to few who’re good to us.. That only will keep us going..!!
Cheers
LikeLike
Thank you for the lovely words.. you are right we go hrd on others and forget that we might just do the same ourself.
very true we must identify the wrongs and not repeat
LikeLike
That was really sweet. Your grandfather sounds like a very special person.
LikeLike
He was definitely .. π Thank you so muchhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…
LikeLike
Family and friends are so precious, especially when they are the supportive kind. I think it’s our innate good fortune that ensures we get the right people around us. Our behaviour then ensures that they stay with us. Beautiful tribute, Bikram.
Apologies for not visiting earlier. No excuses, really.
LikeLike
Oh ho no worries about not visitng earlier .. as and when you get time π I did do shameless marketing on your blog tooo he he he he
Thank you so much, I do fell that god is kind to me and he has someone managed to give me very good people around me ..
LikeLike
It feels great when you know that despite everything there will always be someone who will stand up you, and trust in you even if we ourselves dont. If we happen to find people like that, we are definitely lucky π Wonderful post. of course, all grand parents keep their grandkids pampered in all possible ways, right? π
LikeLike
Yes definitely. we are lucky for sure .. Thank you so much .. yes you are right grandparents do pamper the grandkids for sure
LikeLike
Lovely post Bikramji…
LikeLike
Thank you so much mam…
LikeLiked by 1 person
This is like dil se nikali awaaz. . – Koi kami meri which hovegi – These lines in Punjabi lines are superb.
LikeLike
Thank you so much .. glad you liked it …
LikeLiked by 1 person
I hope you will meet the person and say sorry to them and leave the hurt behind. May peace be with you. I will let you know of my UK plans.
LikeLike
That is the plan for sure One day. Thank you for the wishes mam. and yes please let me knowwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
LikeLike
You are a good simple soul Bikramji. Keep inspiring.
LikeLike
THank you Thank youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu .. I am glad you think that way π
LikeLike
Crying is a wonderful purgative, sir ji. It keeps you calm and balanced. Lucky are those who can cry unlike me who just can’t. All the best! π
LikeLike
THank you sir ji..
LikeLike
What struck me as admirable is your honest
and candid appraisal of the past and
sincere repentance for some of your actions.
This remorse washes away all the guilt.There
is no point in ruing about them.
Fortunate you have your grandpa and parents
who trust you fully.A blessing indeed.
You have gone up a few notches in my esteem
by your frankness.
LikeLike