I have been wondering about myself.. You know we go to some sites they ask us to create our profiles etc , and then write something about ourself .. The dating sites.. Blogging sites.. etc etc (yeah before everyone raises there eyebrows.. I am talking general.. I dont visit dating sites OK OK not that OFTEN he he he )
So what do we write in there, do we know about ourselves so much as we think, or is it people around us who know us better.
Here is an attempt of what I think of myself Loads of people who read will differ because many of you have not met me.. or know me as a person.. But still I am assuming quiet a few would have a inkling of HOW I am.. “Liar, Honest, Pathetic, dependable etc etc .. “
I think of myself as a Normal, common man having same aspirations as millions have, nothing out of blue.. I just want to me a millionaire, have tons of girl friends he he he .. no jokes apart..
Really I never had very high aspirations, I never had a thought of coming abroad, Not even till my final year in college. I was a normal kid, not good in studies but ok in sports.. Always wanted to be in the indian army..
Sat for the IMA exams 4 times cleared Each time, but for some reason SSB interview I was not good enough and for some odd reason I come abroad and am a officer here.. Not going through the SSB interview was one thing that hurt me, cause had not thought of any other thing, always was so sure I will get through the army.. Even joined a coaching place , talked to a few officers , my uncle was a brigadier , he was like There is no way I WILL NOT get through, it was on the BOARD.. anyway it happened and it HURT…
I am very emotional I must say, I have tears coming sometimes when I am alone thinking of stuff just random stuff.. dont know if that is Pathetic or what…
I have made some wrong decisions and I accept them thats what makes us what we are Today I think. Its all these silly, stupid things we have all done while growing up that we Now KNOW are silly and stupid. If we had not then We would not know.
Back home in india I use to love going to movies or chilling with mates, We had such a big group, did some naughty things together, brings a smile on my face now.. HAve had a pretty decent life so far. I will one day sit down and Write about some of the things we did .. am sure will bring out a smile on all who read.
I miss people a lot, I remember almost everything that has happened so far, I can fairly remember the faces of all the people I know and there Names too.. And Yeah something weird I remember most of the Phone numbers. I also miss my home.
I hate people who are two faced, to me IF you have said something or you have promised something then its a MAN’s word why should you step back from it.
I am of the beleif that you should stand by your friends right or wrong, thats what friends are for, no matter what, I rarerly have made enemies but I am positive of one thing that if I cut off with someone then that person has no chance of being back in my good books 🙂
The only thing I hate about myself is that
Why am I so emotional
Why am I such a idiot
Why am I like this
Why does it matter to me if the world is collapsing, or the neighbours house is being burgled. Why do I have to stop when I see a guy following a girl and trying to pinch her purse or harass her, Who the hell is she or he to me .. WHY do I do that..
Why did I need to interfere when the guy who was drunk fell down on the pavement and Two other guys were going through his pockets and His mates who he had come with, were standing there being a spectator and Laughing over the stupidness of there friend.
These questions are constantly disturbing me, I constantly think of ways to change myself but I fail miserably …
Great I did say its difficult to write about ourselves .. don’t know what else to write anyway this was something about me… Now all who read know a bit more about me 🙂