Archive for January, 2010

I am crying today .. oh yes , its just one of those days when nothing seems to go your way. I want to go home, let my mum fuss around me. Let her say how good i am , shower numerous praises on me.

Country roads .. take me Home ..
To the place I belong …
I hear a voice in the morning how she calls me
The radio reminds me of my home far away
Drivin’ down the road I get the feelin’

That I should been home yesterday yesterday
TAKE ME HOME

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I have been a F*%&$£” looser all this time.. AHHHHHHHHHH I would kill someone today
Got up in morning, went the gym and did bugger all, cause the moment I went to do chest press the bloody machine broke…

Then thought leave the weights go for a swim, picked my stuff went to the changing room only to find that I had not got my trunks in the bag, I am very short tempered sometimes so by this time I was fuming at myself.

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Ended up going on the treadmill.. shower and came out to find Some Idiot had hit my car, HOW CRUEL can it be, it was parked perfectly fine so now I am without back lights, went into enquire if the cctv has got the number plate of the car for insurance purpose, Guess what a big NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO…. the cctv is there but it was not recording.. the idiots had forgotten to put it to record, WHAT USE IS IT TO HAVE THE CCTV…. more AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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Came to work to find that last night there was a power cut, so my machine had got rebooted, which meant all the work i had done after the last SAVE, was lost.. especially the SQL queries.. that had been written for testing that makes me MAD , cause it takes ages to get the query right, yesterday I had spent lot of hours optimising a query which was taking more than a hour to run , over internet to 26 minutes , I HAD LOST THAT …. more aaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh my manager and a collegue have had earfull of my moaning today…

Its a CONSPIRACY .. a saazish.. it is a PLOT.. to bring me down,, everything is planning to bring me down … I thought I will write it down and take my anger over here… dont know if i will post this or not .. lets seee…

Monday Blues.. 25 points

Posted: January 25, 2010 in 25 Points

I really like the idea of writing a few lines or points on how the day went , its a good way to keep a tag and also updating the blog , keepin regular on the system. There area lot of people doing it..

1. Monday sucks big time , office should start later on mondays since after a nice lay in on sunday it becomes a big problem to get up and reach work.

2. Its been a drag of a day today, Man I pulled my hair and almost banged my head into the wall today.

3. How do you know what the person was thinking when they were writing the lines, I got a funny reply from a collegue today , who said , She knows exactly what Ms. “A” was writing when she was typing a spec for a program to be written. How can they do that, then i got to know that it was just common sense.. Man where was my common sense cause to me in simple english it meant something completely different.

The spec said

Print Hours Total , Money total, Grand Total if Sort be selected is Department.

Now to me in simple english it means two things

A. print the Hours
Print the Money

And if Sort by department is selected Print the Grand Total for all other conditions leave the grand total.

B. All the three Totals to be printed only if Sort is Department Else Dont.

Now I may be wrong , completely off my hook here but it was a surprise to know that I did not click what Ms “A” was typing when she wrote the spec.

5. Weekend has been busy oh man had a hectic weekend, well to be precise since friday 6Pm to sunday 5Pm, its been hectic, I had what is called PST training, personal safety training. We have to do it every year cause we are officially allowed to hit people legally, so we have to pass it, I managed to get through, Thank god.

Oh well I was being modest here, I saw a blog where 25 points were written , I thought I could do the same OH man its so difficult to do …find 25 points in a day .. I have only managed 5.. Lets se when I get to the point where i can write 25 points … Seems to me would be a big big task.

I still imagine myself to be 20-24, I feel like living doing what,I want to , like I did when I was in my college time

Wanted to fly….. did it ( gliding and then the Flying

Wanted to be a good at sports – I been in nationals for hockey

Wanted to visit places — work in progress, been to Spain-America-Canada-Australia- Brussels- Dubai etc etc.

Wanted to do a few of the dangerous sport activities- Bungee jumping, parachuting, skydiving.. done a few of those

Then came the still moment, People have this notion once you start working , you will become independent , do this and that.. but its not that way.. as you grow responsibilities grow, priorities change , looking at the world differs, things which mattered than .. Don’t matter NOW. My situation was same after college a few things happened which brought me to UK and settle down here.

All those dreams we had, all friends will take up a job in same company and have fun but it was not to be. I am average person. Everyone or well most people are confident in themselves to a level, but there is always self doubt, should I do this or that , will I be successful, am I doing the right thing. I have my doubts at times. I also long for what everyone longs for Love, caress, appreciation, (you guys reading this write a comment HOW GOOD IT IS.. yes go on please please please .. he he hehe )

The other day I was invited for a birthday party, Now I had always thought of this person to be much older than me , i thought he was in 40’s, just the way he moved about and behaved he was an uncle type person. I was shocked to know that he was 31 that day, Blimey.. ooops If he looked like this now wonder how he will be when he is actually 40’s. I am elder to him so i asked him what did he think of me , Do I look in 40’s uncle types . he smiled and walked away. Now what do i take that to be.

(psst I am not putting my Pic on the BLOG, I mean a better one .. cause i know of a few evil people smiling , nodding there head.. to say YES I LOOK LIKE THAT.. Yes I mean you .. so stop smiling and read on and don’t ask for the pic. 🙂 )

So I was saying I feel like doing that all over again, I am a very active person as such regular to the gym, hockey at weekends and yes Less of Daroo which us punjabis love to drink.

I want to go to Disneyland in Florida.. Oh yes I do .. its nothing of being childish .. every person has a child hidden in them.. I do want to go and do it some day …

Visit the Niagara falls.

The one thing I am dieing to do is go on a Safari in Africa , in a Hot air balloon, Imagine the drift flying u over and then in the middle of it Pffft Pfffft Pfffft oooops the engine or whatever it is stops … and you are slowing going down.. down .. you look down .. GUESS what .. A PRIDE is watching with those sweet innocent eyes , tongues hanging out , occasionaly slurping with the thought of fresh MAN MEAT .. YUMMY .. .

(all those who don’t know a PRIDE is a family of a Lion with lots of lioness LUCKY LION. oops did I offend someone .. ok ok Sorry everyone knows what a Pride is 🙂 ).

I also want to do white water rafting…

Another thing i want to do is drive all the way to India, Yes , Get a Toyota land-cruiser or a range rover , drive it all the way to India.. that I have always in my dreams thought of, at some stages actually had serious talks with a group of maniacs like me to do it , we just did not have that much money to buy the cars , else we just might have done it .. Just imagine .. wow.. I am getting a adrenalin rush just thinking about it… A road trip exploring various places around the world, Turkey, istanbul, syria, Greece, Italy,Iran, Austria, Pakistan.. imagine the amazing places. I know a lot of people have done it so why not do it myself, I have been going through a lot of blogs of people who have done it, ONE DAY GOD WILLING I TOO WILL.

More maybe next time .. What about you people out there anything ….

Speeding

Posted: January 20, 2010 in Angry, Hurts, random, Soch, Thinking

I had a horrific day yesterday and it was not snowing either. On my way to work, I had just finished talking on the phone. I usually take the motorway in mornings so as to reach office on time, in evenings i go through the town, as I am in no rush can afford going at a leisurly pace.

Well it had just gone past 6:20pm, dark outside, single lane traffic, clear sky. The speed limit on the road is 30MPH, thats 30 miles an hour, At the roundabout, I was to go straight on, I could see about 60 yards there is a set of traffic lights, which had just gone to amber ready to go to Red, Suddenly a flash motor car, Yeah you guessed it a BMW sped , overtook my stationary car, the car in front of me , did not give two hoots to traffic from right, the guy on the roundabout coming from right had to break sharp.

This guy went over and then a loud bang, I mean this was right in front of my eyes, The speeding car had went straighton, meanwhile the traffic lights had gone to Red, a young girl was crossing the road, BAM .. the car hit her, then the driver probably breaked hard , skidded went into the back of another car parked on the road.
I went over, parked my car , put the hazards on a few people had collected around the girl, Went to her , she was hurt, I rang 999 called for the ambulance and police.

A few people had gone over to the car, the driver was hurt, had a split head, clutching his harm, But I felt no remorse for him, wish i could just get up get the hockey stick from the boot of my car and BEAT the Shite out of this guy. What was the Rush that he drove so fast, Why cant people be more careful and drive within the limits, I can understand the rush to drive fast, do it .. Go to the car racing circuits get the animal out of you , unleash it there. Roads are not meant to drive rashly, they have been made to let people drive sensibly , to reach from one place to another.

The reason why they don’t go to the racing circuits is because there are better drivers then them out there, with better cars So they get to show off on the road. The speed limits are set for a Reason, Please follow them. Its 30MPH for a reason, A person has more chances of surviving the crash if hit by a car running at 30MPH or less, but the chances of survival reduce dramatically on a higher speed.

These are the Statistics…

20 mph – in a car accident involving a pedestrian at this speed there is a one in 40 chance the pedestrian will be killed.

30 mph – in a car accident involving a pedestrian at this speed there is a one in five chance the pedestrian will be killed.

35 mph – in a car accident involving a pedestrian at this speed there is a one in two chance the pedestrian will be killed.

40 mph – in a car accident involving a pedestrian at this speed there is a nine in ten chance the pedestrian will be killed.

Please Think. Watch it to see the impact.

Please be safe, If you are not interested in your own safety then you have no right to put others in danger. THINK before you go on speeding.

The poor girl was taken to the hospital, where she was found to have broken her pelvis, her shoulder and had other injuries all over. The guy he can rot in hell, was home after a few stitches.. While this girl would be in hospital for a long time , once she gets out it will be a long road to recovery not to mention the pain she, her parents, her well wishers will have to go through.

I am going as a witness to this accident I hope and prey the judge sends this guy to prison for a long time , takes his license away for ever, impounds his car send it to the crushers to be crushed. People who are reading this please if you see anything like this make sure you are a witness and dont be afraid to go in front of the jury, We all have a sense of responsibility and duty towards others. If we use the road then we should stand up against such attitude.

I wish harder sentences are given and people are brought to the book for such senseless driving, they should be tried for attempt to take life, as I wrote in my previous article. THE CAR IS A LOADED GUN, a tool to do serious damage with, it is a serious WEAPON.
Drink and Drive.

Sunder mundriye HO

Tera kaun wicahara hoe! Dullah bhatti walla ho!
Dullahe di dhee vyayae ho!

Ser shakkar payee ho! Kudi da laal pachaka ho!
Kudi da saalu paatta ho! Salu kaun samete!
Mamhe choori kutti! zamidara lutti!
Zamindaar sudhaye!
bade bhole aaye!
Ek bhola reh gaya!
Sipahee pakad ke lai gaya!
Sipahee ne mari eet!
Sanoo de de lohri te teri jeeve jodi!
Paheenve ro te phannve pit! “

13th January Lohri day… I would have got up early… worn nice new clothes… met up with my friends and then house to house… singing the above song demanding some gift. We would get money or sweets… Money usually…Imagine the beat of the DHOL… with a group of people singing the above song, the bhangra included…

The house that gave money was blessed by US by

“Dabba bharaya leera da”
“Ai ghar ameera da”

The house that did not got

“Hukka bhai Hukkaa”
“Ai ghar bhukka”

My grandfather would give me the traditional 500Rs and my sisters 500Rs, and my beautiful sister would always give her share to me… so I would have a 1000 to start with… the other one is a miser and doesn’t love me that much ch ch ch ch 😦 So she keeps her money.

My dad is a miser he would not give :), mum would give though depending on how much she has… I bet if mum was not at home a lot of the above Hukka bhai hukka was sung in front of our house he he he … I am just kidding

Then neighbours, The house of the left an old lady lives, She would have a bowl full of sweets ready, I will go and ring her bell, she would say “KHULA HAI”.. Then a crisp 100Rs note and a bowl of sweets and TONS AND TONS OF WISHES, blessings…

Then the neighbours on the right now this is a tussle, because they have two sons, a year younger than me , the tussle is no one wants to go first because its POLITICS .. Yes … religion main bhi POLITICS hai… look the ones who go first will get money so the other set of parents will have to match it… So it’s always hoping they go first so we can tell my dad to give bit more to them… hence we get the same when we go to their house… Yeah you see POLITICS works everywhere 🙂

The house right opposite us, were one of those misers too, hardly saw lights on in that house, I think the owners were in states, only a caretaker was there.. So nothing from there…

By then it would be college time, oh yes holiday-no holiday, festival – no festival, College is a must… and why not cause everyone in the group will be there so meeting up time, meet up then the planning starts how to go about celebrating it, first sukhi’s , then vikrams, then mine and so on.. Evening comes we go for a gedi first in different parts of the city people have organized things, visit them have some fun… a few drinks here and there… Then reach home, Dad always had a big BIG pile of wood… (On second thoughts I think that’s why he did not give money he is saving all that to buy all this wood, or ordering the poor maali to break some from the trees 🙂 a well Now I know )

Lit the fire, have the dholi beat the dhol… dance around the fire eat the sweets The gachaks, Rewadi’s , nuts , next door neighbours would come a few other friends make a night out of it .. Dancing- singing … then once exhausted just sit around the fire till late in night just chatting…

Oh Sunder mundriye hoye!
Tera kaun wicahara hoye!
Dullah bhatti walla hoye!
Dullahe di dhee vyayae hoye!
Ser shakkar payee hoye!

HAPPY LOHRI EVERYONE…. Have a blast .. EAT – DRINK and BE MERRY… Enjoy

HAPPY LOHRI .

Beware this is gonna be a RANT.. and I am not in a good mood today, took me hour and half to reach work.. roads are icy.. and people dont know how to drive ahhhhhhh!!!!

I am sick and tired of this phrase. Especially when a fellow Indian asks me that question… Don’t get me wrong… its fair enough if a white guy asks me that… He does not know because for him all brown skin people are the same…

But when an Indian asks me I usually reply from where you are….

This is a common thing you enter a pub, if you meet someone for first time they will be like

“Kehda pind hai apna” (what village are you from)…

Reply- “Muktsar”…

Malwai hain ke Majhe da … (these are areas in Punjab; it is divided into areas… MALWA – DOAB- MAJHA etc)

I must say when I was in India I did not have a clue about this, but here in UK it is like that, further divisions nation-state-area… I bet it’s gonna go to neighbourhood too 🙂

So I have no idea what Muktsar falls under still… Depending on the area you are from, the circle you sit changes a lot especially in pubs or wedding halls.

I would like to reply to these people when they ask me Where am I from That

” Sat samundaron paar mera sohna watan

jida mishri warga paani
jithe zare zare which pyar

Yaar main uthon da
Jithe Jamiya Bhagat Singh Sardar

Does it matter where I from am?

Will it make me a better or bad person depending on the area?

OH YES… dont smile or think I have gone mad writing this… It does matter because it really is a big issue here in UK, among the Asian (Indian) community… I was surprised when “M” (short for Muthu) a friend from Tamil-Nadu found out that I was actually from Punjab, don’t know what he was thinking I was from originally, I guess a lot of people in south have names like Bikramjit SINGH 🙂 (Ok that was sarcy)… but If I am from Punjab does it make me a bad person or what… He stopped coming to my house, stopped taking my calls.

Till I was “BIK” it was fine, later I got to know from his girl friend who worked in the same office as me, that his parents were Brahmins, since I ate meat they had aked there son to stay away from me.. These are the same parents who stayed in my house for two months when there Son could not afford to buy a house and was living on rent, Why was he stupid enough to get his parents over dont ask me ?… I mean that’s hypocracy.. He went to pubs with me to drink… Here I must say he was/is ok with white people, I see him now and then in pubs with that group and its ok cause gora’s eat beef and Beef is not meat and not at all against his religion :).

I am really surprised in today’s day and age this sort of racism still exists, wonder how it is in India.

The problem with meat, I must laugh, here at McDonalds we get cheese burgers, If you ask for a cheese burger, it has a slice of MEAT in it, that meat is BEEF… So Mr. “M” has gone with me a hundred times for a quick bite, ordering cheese burgers… where did the religion go then eating all that Beef.

I really find it funny. If it is to be thought in region way then Punjab has always been higher in the chain, I belong to a JATT/Sikh which if I am not wrong was martial race equivalent to Kshatriya’s So I am higher in the chain in that sense too. So why would it be a problem to be friendly with me. This is not just my story I am sure it happens to a lot others too or has happened, I was chatting with another mate who is in chicago , he too had the same views, he was a bit over dramatic and said dont be friends with anyone other then same caste, same religion, same region.. But thank god I am not like that.. I feel all Humans are equal END OF.

I mean Mr. “M” when you bought your first car and borrowed money from me to pay for it, should you not have thought about asking which area I belong to at that time, the money was tainted.

It’s really sad that living in a foreign place we are so divided, we don’t find this in Pakistani community they stick together whatever region they are from, but Us Indians it is Punjab-south-north-east… Sikh-Hindu-Muslim Jatt-Majhbi-Brahmin
poor-rich etc etc etc…

Ah well I guess I have had my Rant for the day.. so I should shutup maybe there is something wrong with me , I am from Punjab not from India..

1984

Posted: January 10, 2010 in Uncategorized

All who read or have access to BBC 1.. there is going to be a documentary at 10:55PM UK time tonight 10th Jan 2010. On operation bluestar and events leading to it.

I have heard its an excellent documentary.. So anyone interested can check it out.. And if anyone can Record it then please I need a copy, i will not be at home working a night shift tonight.. yeah what all we need to do to earn a living…

So if anyone records it Please will it be possible to havea copy of it … PLEASEEEEEE